Virgin Island - Season 1 Episode 2
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00:0012 virgins have traveled to a paradise island to take part in a unique experiment the word
00:14virgin people see it as a joke it's quite upsetting i'm 23 still a virgin i feel like
00:22there's something wrong with me in a world where sex is everywhere my god terrified
00:29absolutely terrified the truth is surprising there are more adult virgins than ever being a young
00:36adult in this day and age it's difficult social media dating apps influences tv shows porn porn porn
00:44porn is everywhere are you self-conscious about our genitals touching each other now yeah this
00:51radical retreat is offering a very hands-on solution oh yeah she's a miracle worker woohoo
00:59oh god yes overseen by a group of experts yeah like that i like that ready to do anything to help
01:07britain's virgins there's the clitters do you have any questions lose the one thing
01:16don't make you nervous they feel is holding them back i would love to have sex with you i do feel
01:21like there's a barrier between me and sex i want to lose my virginity it's now or never but when the
01:29moment arrives would you like to move to bed who will be ready i just don't want anyone to touch me to go
01:38all the way in the first phase of the course the virgins tried to overcome the shame of sexual failure
01:56i didn't handle the rejection too well and started to express their sexual desires she pushed me down
02:03and i'd probably do something for her sex i don't know what i'm doing jason arrived on the island barely
02:09able to shake hands oh hello welcome thank you he panicked when things got touchy-feely feel too
02:16intimate a little overwhelming yeah yeah but zach leapt ahead i would like to go all the way i would
02:25love to have sex with you and there were early signs of attraction i uh i think you're really
02:31pretty thank you do you think ben likes me now things are set to escalate with the next phase of the
02:39course erotic touch nothing happens if you're not good at touching that's what creates all of the
02:47pleasure and sensation in our body and that's eventually what gets us to orgasm hello hello hello
03:11how's the sunburn it's the morning of day three on virgin island
03:17have you guys read your letters no okay what is this and time for the group to discover what's
03:23in store for them over the next two days oh god the next phase of the course is all about touch
03:35great i mean i'm fine with like friendly touch but as soon as it becomes like an intimate touch i think
03:42it'll be more much more difficult for me i feel sick biggest fear of touch sexual touching i've never
03:52done it like no that's not me
03:58god touch yeah that's really hard for me
04:01god knows what they have planned i have no idea probably just outright sex to start off with
04:13so this group the idea of intimate touch is terrifying oh here we go here we go but now
04:23it's time to face their fears hello welcome good morning oh my god what are we doing why is there
04:30a bed in this room i imagine all of them will be quite anxious but you can't learn how to give
04:35and receive pleasure by just talking about it you have to practice
04:42so this first exercise today is called touching for your own pleasure
04:47one of the problems is if you touch being worried about the other person and thinking oh are they okay
04:52am i doing it right then you get all performance anxiety in your head until you actually feel the
04:58sensation of touching for your own pleasure you can't get to that next level it's like the first
05:03step right who's ready to touch for your own pleasure
05:19in my childhood with my family we were never huggers i hated being hooked i just never liked it never have
05:25i'm not an intimate person at all in my adult life never kissed anyone but i'd like to be the opposite
05:30i'll pop on there okay the end goal is to actually try and lose my virginity and find a girlfriend
05:38be more intimate can i pull it off can i do this see if you can take a deep breath down into your belly
05:45and connect your body with your hands think of your hands as like i'm gonna get pleasure out of her
05:52arms you know what i mean yeah for yourself i want to feel i'm sorry i want to feel i'm sorry
06:02see if you can breathe a little bit while you do it so that you actually feel the sensations
06:16it's okay for jason just a few seconds of touch is all he can handle
06:26but celeste isn't finished with him yet when i'm touching you i just want you to see like
06:31let yourself take it feel it yeah just feel it
06:47that's good yeah good work
06:52good on you mate honestly yeah it's great one cloud nine okay who's next
07:02encouraged by jason's example the others get touchy too just explore the sensations in your hands
07:15and see if you can take a deep breath down into your belly and connect your body with your hands
07:21do you feel the difference there yes that was amazing good work
07:32the session seems to be going well so celeste and danielle decide to turn up the heat
07:38something that helps touch get even better is sexual energy
07:43i want to invite ben and holly to demonstrate oh god 30 year old ben is the oldest in the group
07:51and has had more opportunities to get intimate than any of the others
07:56over the last 10 years i've been on dates of about 40 different women mostly when i've met on on just
08:01dating apps some it's just been one day uh and up to and including an ex-girlfriend of mine who was
08:07probably about you know 15 plus dates we we did sort of try making out a couple of times but i
08:12wasn't comfortable doing stuff so it was we hit we hit a brick wall you know what i really needed
08:16someone to teach me this stuff i'm not very um not very good with the energy mumbo jumbo so you have
08:21to guide me through i'll help you okay just remember a moment that you felt kind of excited about
08:28someone or excited about an experience yeah you are holding a lot of tension in your mouth
08:35can you like open your mouth a little bit and then relax it yeah it's okay play with it you need to play
08:43with it it's okay let yourself feel it like oh here you go did you feel the squiver
08:48i don't know no okay i think it's just lack of experience and lack of success at reading
08:57sort of social signals you know there's probably occasions where i probably could have got physical
09:00or just kissed and they'd be they'd be absolutely fine in fact they may have even wanted it but i
09:04didn't because i can't read the signs i don't want a woman to think i'm a creep or that i'm handsy
09:09because that's just not me just let yourself enjoy holly
09:12fantastic you have very sexy energy right feels good okay you did it see if you want to work
09:30so tom taylor last up is taylor who after coming out as bisexual at university has always found the
09:39idea of intimacy with anyone agonizing anytime i've had something near in a sexual experience
09:45it's been so overwhelmingly negative that when it comes to it i freak out and i really don't want
09:50to do it and i get that feeling in the pit in my stomach that makes me stop that's why i'm here is
09:55to like trying to work out what is that's holding me back and how to move forward with it because it
10:01would be really nice to just be able to have what everyone else has
10:04okay so i'm going to invite you to feel into your desire tom
10:15this is really good keep it steady it's really good really good you keep it steady i'm going to
10:22check what's with her okay if she can receive it great that's great let it look i can touch your
10:28belly okay just to help you out sweetie okay good let it shake it's let it cry you're safe now okay
10:36you know you're safe but your body forgot okay yeah so i'm here despite danielle's reassurance
10:45the exercise still proves too much for taylor yes you're doing great taylor
10:52i'm so proud of you sorry sorry it's not it's not a you thing
11:04really proud of you okay thank you really proud of you good work we love you taylor i don't know
11:10what's wrong with me for the group the workshop has thrown up very mixed emotions
11:28ted why was looking things so hard for you i think as soon as it becomes a intimate sexual thing yeah
11:35shut down sounds ridiculous because we're only looking at each other but that's something i
11:39clearly need to work on i usually run the opposite way if anyone looks at me like that but if you're
11:44not crying you're not doing it right louise did you catch his blanking comment yeah i just walked around
11:53i didn't do you know what i mean i didn't think okay i love that you haven't got a filter
11:58i feel absolutely fantastic i understand now where people like touch i'm not just saying that actually
12:04it generally does i can't really convey how good it feels now how did you find the whole thing as
12:09a whole um quite intense well i had i had lots of fun yeah when i was doing it i did feel like you
12:17feel the connection couldn't you really yeah yeah i asked that new age mumbo jumbo slow nonsense
12:23i'm quite a logical person and it's just a lot of some of that stuff it just doesn't doesn't connect to
12:27me all right do you want me to like try it and see if you can feel me yeah all right despite his
12:32skepticism there are some things ben is open to trying hi see you guys a little bit especially
12:39if it's with charlotte you're open to receiving my energy
12:46yeah see you can feel it now what does it feel like to you
12:51the witching yeah many of the women here i find attractive i mean physically but there's something
13:01about charlotte i really like her and it's just i like how we connect i mean i don't know if it's
13:06mutual or not but she's a very confident person and she's just got that thing about her i feel like
13:12i'm doing voyeurism just watching you enjoying that no i'm gonna walk away right sorry
13:25it's day one of the touch phase of the course and after an intense morning a chance for the group to unwind
13:39who's your celebrity crush i like quite a lot of like female celebrities i like charlie
13:56theron she's just stunning i like henry cavill but not as superman i like him as the witcher
14:02i really like henry cavill because he's really nerdy as well
14:08what do you think when you hear virgin because for me shame failure undesirable weird yeah it's
14:18definitely mostly negative connotations yeah other people call me a virgin and it does feel like an
14:26insult i know it's not it's a matter of it's a matter of fact but it does feel like an insult
14:32when someone says it to you makes me feel weird i'm like a lot of people younger than me know more
14:38about sex than i do but um i'm hoping to change that jason's feelings about his lack of sexual
14:47experience haven't gone unnoticed by the experts anytime there was an increase in intensity he would
14:54resort to humor so that he could distract himself from what he was feeling we're going to work on that
15:00today actually staying with the breath as sensations rise yeah receiving is a huge thing for him
15:08now the experts want to build jason's confidence and joy has a plan to help him with his horror of hugging
15:14hello again hey come on in thank you and have a seat oh excellent oh what is it that happens when
15:29you're in a hug what it just feels weird like alien to me when i see people hugging just freaks me out
15:34yeah i don't know why so we want to work towards a hug that feels really good yeah
15:42so let's let's stand here because it's a little more even
15:46i'm going to touch your arm first okay do you want it yeah go ahead
15:51and you feel me and you can put your hand on my arm yeah if you'd like yeah
16:05i feel sick no no no bad way i feel like in a good way like british slang
16:09yeah as usual jason tries to mask his awkwardness with humor i'm quite robotic i feel like you're
16:18moving your hands yourself at first i just want you to receive okay so i can get a sense of what it
16:24feels like to be in this moment but joy perseveres yeah it's really nice before escalating intimacy
16:37can i come even closer if you want to yeah yeah like like that yeah you can move like that by just
16:45staying connected with your breath so you don't lose that sense of the moment
16:57yeah can i come even closer still okay i can get closer yeah okay
17:04yeah i can touch your neck
17:16feels good
17:22would you like to do a hug why not let's do it yeah let's do it
17:34how is this yeah awesome yeah come on yeah
17:42thank you thank you see you
17:52oh that was great after the session jason's confidence is sky high
18:00and that's not the only thing that's up what happened so i was standing like this
18:04because as much as i was like that i had a bonus i was like that that's really good dude i'm getting
18:12there i'm getting there i'm getting there i'm in a really great mood i feel like i'm glowing
18:17i didn't think i'd do this i'm really proud of myself on this page i'll be a sex god
18:22i mean yeah yeah we're gonna leave here absolutely professionally trained sex demon
18:30while jason's conquering new heights
18:32i haven't really gotten much out of mind yet i just feel like i'm letting the team down
18:36taylor's still struggling after crying in this morning's workshop the experts feel the baby
18:42more to taylor's tears than meets the eye even though she was being emotional she wasn't actually
18:49letting go and going into her emotion i feel like she's hiding and that's probably been a survival
18:55tactic that has worked really well for her yeah she is so scared
19:03danielle wants to discover what makes taylor so anxious about intimacy
19:12so how do you feel with guys as opposed to women or girls they're a lot scarier do you ever
19:19see like someone very chiseled and you're like i just want to touch the muscle i don't know i don't
19:23know i don't know i don't think i like hair like i'm always like i want to touch people's hair like
19:29that interests me because it's soft but i'm not like i don't want to touch muscle i don't i don't
19:33prefer it when i was in secondary school i felt the shift into realizing that maybe i wasn't exactly the
19:42same as all the girls but being gay was like the worst thing so while i'm still in the process of like
19:48working out what i want all of these opportunities are passing me by it just makes me feel a bit rubbish
19:58do you have women lovers or i had one really negative experience she got annoyed at me that
20:05i wasn't enjoying myself she did stop but she seemed really disappointed and she was like upset with me
20:09and it kind of ruined that friendship yeah i don't see myself as desirable
20:16right because i'm a lot what are you oh now we're getting there my love okay so there's a part of
20:27you that feels that people wouldn't want to be with you yeah yeah i get told a lot the time that i'm loud
20:36and i'm tall and i'm i take up a lot of space and yeah and that's what makes you so special and beautiful
20:50baby
20:57your feelings are so great sweetheart
21:04just talking about my experiences always makes me upset but i've had a great few negative
21:09experiences and of course those are the ones that i need to talk about for this to work
21:12thank you but i've had i've had a breakthrough i think thank you very much bye i left happier then i
21:23went in and forward is always good isn't it so as long as i'm going forward i'm happy
21:31you're nervous no no i mean other than falling off the cliff yes it's late afternoon on virgin island
21:45jesus yeah this is quite steep and celeste and danielle have hatched a plan to push the group further
21:52all right let's get a mat down we want them to start just getting comfortable with any kind of touch
21:57massage is something that a lot of people have experienced i'm hoping maybe they'll take off a
22:01piece of clothing to start to feel more relaxed around touch and maybe you know eventually nudity
22:08are you taking your cup off for go on i'll like lift it up for you through massage the experts can
22:13assess how comfortable the group are with exposing their bodies a little bit yeah and touching each other
22:22for pleasure you're very good at this thank you they have my skills all of them end with a z
22:31what's that my family does them uh we grew up giving each other massages you're shaking a bit
22:37you sure it's all right no no i'm fine no i'm fine okay i'm gonna actually you're like this
22:42relax relax yeah i need to be more loosey-goosey while uptight ben struggles to relax
22:48i'll whack this off the experts are keen for jason to build on his growing confidence around touch
22:54with the island's most outspoken virgin charlotte how's this it's fine yeah it just feels
23:03i don't know weird but in a nice way why do you use these horrible stretch marks i don't know all right
23:09it's just a hole did you well it's just it looks painful it looks like you just see my ass it's
23:14more on my ass okay i'm bored now yeah i'm bored now all right which arm first this one this one yes
23:27okay okay why are you focused in one area you need to see okay you want me to show you on you
23:34no let's go i'll put more oil on like it on for jason intimacy with another member of the group
23:41is proving tougher than with an expert more thumb more movement you need to be doing the whole
23:48like like that how about that like that i think it's all of it jesus christ what are you doing it's
23:53like wanking off your arm like that like that's how you do it but slower okay now i definitely want you
23:59to stop how was the monsieur oh so did you not like it that was a disaster i looked off my shirt
24:18and everything oh cool stretch mark all right looking like man maybe not being berated a lot would
24:28have felt nice i've always hated my body my especially my back and the stretch marks i know
24:35it's a little thing but it's for me it's quite big although jason's suffering from over exposure to
24:44charlotte is yours yes they suit me you've already tried them on ben can't get enough of her
24:54i always find i end up getting very steep in the summer because of the hay fever tablets i take
24:59i'm sorry i always get very steep in the summer it's called the hay fever tablets
25:03because they're drowsy ones the big question now is is the feeling mutual
25:08how many songs you can get there anyway oh like i have like a i have a thousand and seventy
25:15yeah i mean it's so great that we've like gotten to know each other and that we can
25:24you know we feel comfortable around each other but i'm not interested
25:31and so it's going to be tricky you know this is my friend this is someone i'm going to have breakfast
25:36with tomorrow and i'm going to have to be cruel to be kind and tell him that i'm not interested
25:50in the morning morning guys you're right hello okay you're right yeah i'm good thank you
26:06we're good to sleep yeah so so it's day two of the touch phase and the sessions are about to intensify
26:14really in order to have amazing sex you need to touch you won't be able to make any moves you won't
26:21be able to seduce someone if you're feeling anxious and worried that everything that you're doing is
26:25wrong a lot of people they're holding back all of those animal instincts they just need to open up
26:33i think it's one of those things where you've got to just keep on going and try and get yourself to
26:38the next step ideally without crying but we'll see i'm dreading the group activity it's getting more
26:46intimate with touch i feel nervous after yesterday's massage catastrophe yeah i'm not sure what would
26:53happen next for me um just being desired that's the key thing for me that's one of my sort of issues is
26:58you know being wanted and desired and i don't think i've had that a lot but um just you know see what
27:02happens and uh go with it i guess yeah it's getting first on the back row yes my plan exactly
27:13hello welcome back welcome back hello hi oh god he's our therapist
27:19so today we're going to go much deeper into touch and work on disinhibition and that means letting
27:34out a little bit more of your wildness a little bit more of your inner animal oh god we are wired for
27:41sex right we're wired to go after it and yet society says shame shame shame it was you know and we shut
27:47down and the animal game helps people feel the passion and desire in their body
27:54so i know tom that you've taken some acting classes so i'm wondering if you would be willing to demo with
28:00me yeah sure yes so let's get on our hands and knees why don't you just start to feel your senses
28:11we close our eyes and we start to feel this animal inside of us and we let that animal go after the
28:17other person actually letting it move letting it out in our body
28:32so tom may be finding his wild side
28:44but for the rest of the group
28:45it's too much to bear
28:58it was very jungle book and i was feeling very downton abbey
29:24and i was like it's lovely like they're really enjoying it but also
29:31so someone want to try it
29:40someone wants maybe 80 to try it
29:43charlotte yeah i'll do it amazing
30:05you can change your mind yeah i wouldn't yeah i wouldn't do it yeah okay
30:15do you want to do it do you want me to do it okay
30:20okay yeah
30:24i've just always felt like i'm ugly and repulsive in some way and i know that objectively i'm not but i was
30:29bullied in school and i think the dating experience sort of just saying reinforce that i'm just not like
30:34good-looking why would any girl be interested in me so i struggle to to sort of initiate
30:42uh you know contact or intimacy and i find a place on the rug
30:48your life is awkward unfortunately and you simply you know you just move on you know that's that's how
30:53that's how it goes and i'm just not very good at that
30:55it's hard to notice that there's another animal here with you
31:11that's how it goes
31:26men are expected to make that first move and i think for guys like me who just struggle with
31:31that making the move and reading the signs it's very hard
31:42oh that's my happy heart
31:50this is so hot
31:55did you feel any arousal i'm curious yeah i think some yeah yes
31:59actually like a zoo animal that was not for me oh god that was just it was a bit rough
32:12that was cringe i found interesting then spring that's saying oh you've done drama so you've done
32:16this sort of stuff like i'm not sure i've gone quite that far in drama to be fair
32:21yeah how did you feel a bit at all i flipped our instructor i noticed like i could hear people
32:29like talking and giggling that's oh you know and i had to kind of try to block that out yeah it was
32:34like watching a porno i felt like a proper pervert were you getting turned on no i thought you'd be one
32:40of the first ones up jason no i absolutely hated that in the back of my head i had a bit of trepidation
32:47about a bit of fear about it so i didn't want to do that jason's massage experience has set him back
32:54and the experts have sensed that something's changed jason he's been so gung-ho and i thought
33:00he would be gung-ho today but he was way more reserved we did in our session uh have very close
33:07body on body but he wasn't able to then move the energy into something more sexual okay so maybe i
33:14can build on that yeah celeste decides jason needs to put his massage fiasco behind him
33:21in a one-on-one session to boost his sexual self-belief the only person if i had sexual
33:26experience with was my right hand i'd love to have more confidence i'd love to be able to be intimate
33:32yeah that's my goal to reach his goal celeste wants to try a different approach to unleash his inner
33:39animal so we had the animal game and the touching we did yeah seemed like the animal game was not
33:47doing my cup of tea no so i was thinking maybe trying some different connection positions to build
33:53confidence yeah maybe you like lying down and us like touching each other i'm here to try new things
33:59try yeah well let's try it so you can lie down like here on my back yeah lie down on your back like
34:05with your head down there i'm gonna like move in here maybe i'll take off my glasses see if you can
34:12like just connect with your sexy energy and you if you feel an urge to touch back feel free okay and
34:21there's like a little bit of intensity that we're going to kind of try to build between us
34:35and you can touch i can't touch you back as his confidence builds
35:03so kind of good celeste makes things harder now i want you to see if you can take your energy
35:11seriously seriously now and look at me like i want to fuck you kind of
35:25i want to see if you can take your energy if you can take your energy from your body
35:31so good
35:33so good
35:35so good
35:39so good
35:41so good
35:43so good
35:49Ah, it's just so good.
35:56Do you need a little break, or do you need a little break?
35:58Do you need a little break?
35:59OK.
36:00Woo-hoo!
36:01It's a lot.
36:02That's amazing.
36:07It's a lot different than hugging.
36:09A lot different than hugging.
36:10I know.
36:17That is your inner animal.
36:19When you take your desire seriously, it's very compelling.
36:26Whoa.
36:27Whoa.
36:28OK.
36:29I'll see you soon.
36:30Yeah.
36:30See you soon.
36:31Have a lovely day.
36:32You too.
36:32Bye.
36:39I'm feeling incredible.
36:41Absolutely incredible.
36:42She's a miracle worker.
36:44I was a virgin.
36:44Well, I am a virgin still.
36:45But I'm like a different virgin now.
36:47I'm closer to losing him.
36:51Ben.
36:52How'd it go?
36:52I kissed her on the cheeks.
36:54You're a cloud nine, are you?
36:56I'm lying down, yeah?
36:58And I'm there, cupping her breasts, squeezing over.
37:00How did that feel?
37:02Great.
37:03I feel like I'm glowing.
37:04I'm like, woo-hoo!
37:05Woo-hoo!
37:06I feel like Jason is a superstar.
37:07I cannot believe how much he has blossomed today.
37:12It is insane.
37:14He brought his sexual energy, eye contact.
37:18He really got what sex is all about.
37:21不要.
37:22Keep dancing.
37:30Oh, yeah!
37:37It's not a banana!
37:39The touch phase of the cost is drawing to a close.
37:41Ooh!
37:43Whippedrine.
37:44Chocolate.
37:44Oh, strawberry-laces.
37:45Do you like strawberry-laces?
37:46I do like strawberry-laces.
37:47and the group have been served up a tasty exercise.
37:51Smallish bite, I'm not going to put it in too much.
37:54There's something very sensual about feeding each other.
37:57You know, the experience of putting food into someone's mouth,
38:00especially if you deal with, like, a little bit of flirtatiousness.
38:04When you laugh, I know where your face is and I can slap it.
38:09Technically, this will be the first act of penetration,
38:12so I'm very curious how they put objects inside one another.
38:17Sorry, I put the whole strawberry in.
38:21Open wide.
38:22I'm not opening my mouth wide.
38:24You can trust me, you can trust me.
38:26Many of the group are throwing themselves in.
38:29You dropped it, Matt!
38:31Have you ever fed someone before?
38:33No.
38:34No.
38:34The first person.
38:35But not everyone is feeling fruity.
38:38I feel like this is probably not the most romantic.
38:43No.
38:44No.
38:47So far on the course, it's Ben and Taylor who are holding back the most.
38:52So the experts want to see if they can help, starting with Ben.
38:56The animal game was really hard for Ben.
38:59When he volunteered to help out Charlotte and she said no,
39:04that she didn't want that, he was very sad.
39:06He needs to understand rejection and how you survive that as a man dating women.
39:12After Celeste's breakthrough with Jason, she wants to help Ben find his sexy side.
39:18But spontaneity is not his strong point.
39:21I'm quite a logical person.
39:22I like to think things, I like to plan for things.
39:24Probably the best example, and this is going to sound quite sad, but it's true.
39:27I've got a spreadsheet on my PC at home of just, like, every date I've been on.
39:31I see dating in the same way a football manager would see their team.
39:35I like to analyse things and see what I can do better.
39:40So can Ben Ditchie's spreadsheet approach to sex with some hands-on practice?
39:45I think if you learn how to hold a little bit more flirtatious energy, like...
39:54Yeah.
39:54I'm going to do it now with you for a second, okay, and show you what I mean.
39:57Like, I'm really enjoying being here with you.
40:02So that's what I would do to them?
40:03Yeah.
40:04So as you talk to me, just at some point when you're talking,
40:08give me a touch while you're talking.
40:10I mean, this is quite crude, but you are sort of my type, so it's sort of like, yeah.
40:14That's not crude, that's a compliment.
40:16I mean, you're quite attractive, so I mean, you know.
40:18I usually go for the hair, actually, sometimes.
40:20Yeah?
40:21Yeah, so it's sort of like, sort of do that, and yeah, it's...
40:24That's actually my total weakness.
40:27Oh, really?
40:27Yeah, but I like it really, really slow, like...
40:38And I feel, like, very precious.
40:39Yeah.
40:40Yeah.
40:41So, like...
40:44And I think even if you go a little bit slower, so then it feels more, like, sensual.
40:55Mm-hmm.
40:57Mm-hmm.
40:59I do feel tingly when you do that.
41:03Well, maybe I'm better than I thought I was, but...
41:05Mm-hmm.
41:06Uh, you know, it's not something I have sort of conscious control over, just sort of, you know.
41:11That's what's good about it, is I feel like you're touching me just because you desire me, and you want to touch me, not like you're thinking about it.
41:18And that's hot.
41:20Yeah.
41:20By losing himself in the moment, Ben's gaining a flair for the physical.
41:27If you just want to, like, come in and, like, kiss me on the cheek, you don't have to.
41:31Mm-hmm.
41:31But you can.
41:34Yeah.
41:38Oh, my goodness.
41:39What?
41:40Look at you.
41:41Mm-hmm.
41:43It makes me want to touch your back.
41:57Wow.
41:59You don't realize how much of a confidence booster this is.
42:03So now I'm doing it good.
42:05It's really great.
42:07You're getting better every time.
42:10It's baby steps, but Ben's session has been a success.
42:22Now the experts want to get to the bottom of what's troubling Taylor.
42:27Farthest I've ever gone with a boy is met a nice guy.
42:33He was very attractive and very lovely.
42:35Invited him back, and I was like, right, you can do this.
42:38I'd convinced myself I was going to lose my virginity.
42:42But I freaked out, hit that invisible barrier, and I was just like, nope, I can't do it, that's it, I can.
42:48And he left.
42:49And then I just felt so bad and disappointed in myself, and, like, I'd let him down, because I couldn't follow through.
42:57To clarify her thinking, the experts want to pair her with male surrogate partner therapist, Andre.
43:03So my role in this is to basically stand in as what could be a potential partner or a potential lover.
43:15And I'm here to support you through the emotion, the communication, transparency.
43:20Surrogate partners help by forming a therapeutic relationship, supported by a clinical therapist.
43:25I will leave the two of you to enjoy your time together.
43:30All right?
43:30Thank you very much.
43:31I'll see you soon.
43:32Take care.
43:34Mm-hmm.
43:41Hmm.
43:42I'm scared.
43:44You're sorry?
43:46It's okay.
43:47I've got a lot of emotions about this whole thing, and they're kind of trickling into everything.
43:51There's nothing to be sorry about in displaying emotion.
43:57So what could potentially be, like, a desired, like, goal or outcome?
44:03Less of this.
44:04Okay.
44:05Then we're on the right track.
44:07Step on less of this.
44:08And just feeling more comfortable, like, in a situation where I feel like any time it comes to a situation, sorry,
44:15where, um, like, sex is on the table, I freeze up and I panic.
44:21Mm-hmm.
44:21I just don't want anyone to touch me or anything like that because I just feel wrong.
44:27Mm-hmm.
44:27Okay.
44:29Well, that is exactly why I'm here, and we can practice with one another.
44:38We can explore the things that you came here to explore.
44:43Oh, God.
44:51Just want to see how you're feeling.
44:54It feels like there's, like, a knot in my throat.
44:58So it's generally, like, uncomfortable kind of a feeling.
45:02Okay.
45:03Is there anything I can provide for you?
45:05Do you like a hug?
45:07Oh, thank you.
45:08Okay.
45:13The therapy that was explained to me terrifies me down to the very depths of my car.
45:18Well, and if you'd like, you're welcome to head on out whenever you're ready.
45:22Okay, thank you very much.
45:24You're very welcome.
45:26I don't know if I've made any actual photographs because I just kind of get a bit weepy.
45:30I really liked Andrei, and he was really lovely, and I'd love to be his friend, but I'm trying to work out why I'm so panicked.
45:39I think it scares me, the fact that he's a man.
45:47Sorry.
45:49I just have one minute.
45:51I think I'm upset about more things than I've got on.
46:00Next time...
46:01Ah!
46:02..Jason gets back in the groove.
46:04I just feel the pleasure.
46:06I'm a bummer.
46:08..Taylor tries a fresh approach.
46:11I just feel such relief to not feel scared at all.
46:13This is my body.
46:15And Emma reveals a secret.
46:16It's because you're so stronger than you think, and wiser than you know.
46:21As Ireland dates...
46:24Does that make you nervous?
46:25A little bit.
46:26..Hotter.
46:27You're welcome.
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