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00:00When was your last hookup?
00:02AHHHHH
00:03Give us a time you and your ex fought, and what was it over?
00:06Oh god, I'm scared!
00:08You guys, you guys, you guys, you guys.
00:13Is that me, espresso?
00:16I'm working late, cause I'm a singer.
00:20And it looks so cute, wrapped around my finger.
00:24Hey everybody!
00:25Welcome back to my channel!
00:31What is up?
00:32How are you guys doing?
00:33Today I am here with my pasta, my dinner.
00:37And I decided to do a sit-down video and answer some of the questions that I have been avoiding
00:44slash hesitant to answer slash just not wanting to answer.
00:49I just like...
00:51I just like...
00:52Um, yeah, like sometimes answering questions online make me a little uncomfortable
00:57because I'm like, okay, you guys just know so much about me now.
01:00But, but, but, but, but, I love y'all.
01:03And y'all ate up the video where I was answering questions that made me visibly uncomfortable.
01:08So I figured you guys must love hearing me yap.
01:10And so here I am answering another set of questions that make me uncomfortable
01:14and the ones that I want to avoid.
01:16But it's what y'all want, and I'm here to give it to you.
01:18Let me grab my phone because that's where all the questions are.
01:22And this is the first time that I'm doing a sit-down video in my freaking apartment!
01:27The last time I was doing one, I was still living with my older sister.
01:30Welcome to my apartment.
01:31Look how cute it is.
01:32I literally do not leave the house.
01:34This is my safe place.
01:36And I mean, I'm inviting you to my safe place.
01:38Um, all right, let's freaking begin.
01:42Oh god, I already feel my stomach being a little nervous.
01:46As usual, I uploaded a Instagram poll asking you guys to just ask me questions that I would avoid,
01:52make me uncomfortable, yadda yadda yadda.
01:54And y'all ate with the f***ing watchers because what the f***?
01:57What the hell?
01:58Let's start off light, nothing too serious.
02:01The first question is, how is living alone so far?
02:05One second, let me take a bite out of this pasta I made.
02:08I've been cooking this week actually, not that much.
02:12But living alone is freaking amazing.
02:16This is so good.
02:25It's feta, tomato, spinach, pasta.
02:28That is so freaking good.
02:29Wow.
02:30Resuming.
02:31Living alone, you guys, has honestly been the best decision of my life because I love living alone.
02:36I think the only downside to this whole thing is obviously just dealing with the responsibilities
02:42and everything.
02:43For example, me getting locked out three times and wasting so much money
02:47or figuring out how to cook and how to freaking provide myself meals every day.
02:52But other than that, I freaking love living alone.
02:55It's so peaceful.
02:56It's so calm.
02:57I love having a mini routine in the morning.
02:59I love going to bed.
03:01I have, I just love having my own space.
03:03Okay, the first question was definitely not something I was avoiding to talk about,
03:07but I just need to start off, you know, warm.
03:10There's a lot of questions if I would get back with my ex.
03:17All right, let me just stop stalling and freaking answer.
03:20Would I ever get back with my ex?
03:22A lot of questions are asking, do I miss my ex?
03:25Are you over my ex?
03:26Are you over, are you over my ex?
03:28Are you over my ex?
03:29The fuck?
03:30Am I over my ex?
03:31X, X, X, X, X, this, X, Y, and Z.
03:34Okay, let me start answering.
03:37Ever since that video I posted online,
03:39um, I kind of stopped talking about my ex because,
03:43I mean, like, there's no reason for me to keep talking about my ex.
03:48Like, your girl's gotta heal and guess what?
03:51She's healed.
03:52She's, um, war is over, basically.
03:54Okay, let me tell you a little funny story.
03:56I have a spam TikTok and I was looking back at my videos
03:59and I just realized how down bad I was.
04:03You know, for a good reason.
04:04You break up with your partner, you, you get, you're, you're heartbroken, whatever.
04:09But damn, I was so heartbroken, like, so down bad.
04:13You could just see, like, every era of my life
04:15when I'm posting these spams and ranting to you guys.
04:18My point of that story was that, uh, yeah,
04:21I was really down bad, admittedly, and I am not anymore.
04:25I am fully over my ex.
04:27I have been for a while.
04:29I just, like, haven't posted about it.
04:31The moment I realized I was over my ex
04:33was when I saw pictures of him or someone said his name
04:36and, like, I, like, didn't bat an eye.
04:39No emotion in me were aroused, excited, sad, upset.
04:43Like, I was just like, oh, it's just a name.
04:46Obviously, still wish him the best.
04:48The feeling of being over someone is so freaking nice.
04:54Me and my friends were talking about this,
04:55but when you are finally over such a emotional cycle
05:01that you dealt with every single day
05:03and you finally let go of that cycle and you're out of it
05:06and you could just look at the cycle from a distance,
05:09it is the best feeling ever.
05:12I'm so happy that I do not have to deal with, like,
05:16uh, just a breakup in general.
05:18Like, not even my ex, just a breakup in general.
05:20And I've grown so much for them breakups.
05:22I don't regret anything.
05:24But goddamn, I f***ing hated that era, okay?
05:27Man, I could talk about breakups any time of the day.
05:31If you want me to become your therapist for a breakup
05:33and how to get over it, freaking hit me up in the DMs
05:36because holy crap, I think I am a master at that.
05:46Hopping off from that question,
05:48we have a more general, like, advice type of question,
05:52how to get over your ex.
05:53This is, like, such a hard question
05:55because everyone's situation is so different.
05:58Like, for example, if you are in a toxic relationship,
06:01you know, your partner is avoidant.
06:03If you're anxious, or vice versa.
06:06It really depends on each person.
06:08But I would say for the most part,
06:11I think my advice kind of applies to everyone
06:13is focusing on yourself.
06:15I know how freaking hard it is to detach from someone
06:20that you have been spending every single of your time with.
06:23I know how it feels when suddenly the person
06:27that your mind just thinks about 24-7,
06:30whether it's happy or sad thoughts,
06:32just leave your brain.
06:33Your brain doesn't know how to react.
06:34Your brain doesn't know what else to fill that thing up with.
06:38It literally feels like someone died in your life.
06:40You just, like, have to remember your life is not freaking over.
06:45So many people, including me,
06:46we're so stuck in the present,
06:48not thinking outside of the magnifying glass.
06:51Like, we're, like, we're looking under, like, a microscope
06:55and being like, oh my god, we're literally so dead.
06:58No, maybe take your eyes out of the microscope
07:00and be like, oh my god, there's so much more to life.
07:02After breaking up with my ex,
07:04I was so sad and being like,
07:06I literally don't have my other person anymore, yada, yada, yada.
07:12But then I made so many friends that replaced that.
07:15I met my two guy friends, my college friends.
07:18I made stronger connections with my current friends.
07:20You need to get yourself out there and make more friends.
07:24And grow to make stronger bonds with your current friends.
07:28And I know it's easier said than done
07:29because what the hell, making friends in general is so hard.
07:32How, you know, how the hell are you gonna,
07:34are you supposed to do that when you're freaking sad
07:36and crying and freaking mad at everything in the world, you know?
07:41If you are willing to really try to get better, you will.
07:44Really focus on yourself.
07:46Other than friends and looking for new connections,
07:48you gotta get out of the house, girl.
07:50Get out of the house, get out of bed.
07:52Go for a walk.
07:53Romanticize everything in your life.
07:55Even going to get like a cup of coffee.
07:58Be like, wow, I'm so independent.
08:00I love my new life.
08:01I'm gonna freaking go and buy a coffee.
08:04It makes life so much happier, honestly.
08:06I'm being freaking, like don't be delusional romanticizing,
08:09but romanticizing your life when you are in a hard time
08:12trying to work on yourself, it works.
08:14I think I'm yapping right now.
08:16I'm sorry if I'm making literally no sense.
08:18But that really helped me.
08:20Standing in front of a sun really helped me just being in the sun.
08:25If I stayed inside my house with no sun when I'm sad,
08:28I will be more sad and that's the last thing you want.
08:31Step out of the sun and enjoy it, you know?
08:33Read a book or something in the sun or drink your coffee.
08:37That being said, if you are feeling sad
08:40and you are the type of person to suppress your emotions,
08:43girl, go watch a sad movie.
08:45Listen to some sad songs.
08:47Let yourself be sad and cry in bed
08:49because crying, I think scientifically,
08:52also does something with your brain chemicals
08:54where it actually makes you feel better.
08:56So if you are suppressing your emotions right now,
08:58you need to go cry, okay?
09:00I could go on and on and on and on about like advice
09:03about how to get better and like how to feel more independent
09:06and yadda yadda yadda,
09:07but I think I would be boring your freaking ears off.
09:10So if you want me to talk more about that, let me know.
09:13Conclusion, make new friends.
09:14You're not under a microscope, freaking get your-
09:18Zoom out, girl.
09:19Freaking zoom out, okay?
09:20And number three, stand in front of the sun.
09:22Number four, if you're suppressing, let yourself be sad, okay?
09:27Okay, sir?
09:28Next!
09:28Okay, we're just going to go scroll, scroll, scroll, scroll, scroll.
09:34You pregnant?
09:35I'm actually on my period.
09:37Everybody!
09:41Oh my god.
09:44This is a question that a lot of people have been asking recently.
09:51Oh god, I'm scared, I'm scared.
09:53Okay, actually no, I'm not scared.
09:55I have no reason to be scared, okay?
09:57The question is, did you get any lip fillers?
10:00I saw an edit on TikTok and they were like,
10:03did Erika Haw get lip fillers?
10:05Oh my god, her lips look so much bigger compared to whatever.
10:08And the answer is...
10:10Bingo!
10:12I got lip fillers but less than 0.5 syringe on my top and lower lip in Korea.
10:18My sisters and I were getting a facial and the place that was getting a face-
10:21that we were getting the facial were like,
10:23you could get lip fillers if you want.
10:25So I was like, okay, like why the hell not?
10:28There's the opportunity to and I have the funds to do it.
10:31I obviously wanted a natural look and it really doesn't look much different to my lips back then.
10:37I don't really see that much of a big difference, if anything.
10:40It's like a tiny bit more swollen, like on the top lips.
10:43But yeah, I got it like last year during the summer in Korea.
10:46Less than half a syringe.
10:48That being said, um, I feel like there's nothing wrong with it.
10:51I have nothing against girls who gets things done to their faces or body.
10:55Also, with that being said, I love my body and I love my face.
10:58I don't think you should change your body or face
11:01just because your favorite influencer did or something like that.
11:04Freaking love yourself.
11:05But also, I don't freaking judge.
11:07But yeah, a lot of people have been wondering
11:09and I just found it freaking hilarious sitting back and looking at all the assumptions.
11:13I just didn't know like how to address it or I don't know.
11:16I don't think it's something to hide but I wasn't just gonna be like,
11:19yup, you know?
11:20So now I guess it's the perfect time to reveal that information.
11:23A lot of these are about my V-card.
11:26Oh my god.
11:27Does it hurt the first time?
11:31What is the dirtiest thing you did to a person?
11:33How old were you when you lost your V-card?
11:36Holy crap.
11:38Ex-boyfriend or next boyfriend?
11:39What are you looking forward for?
11:42Yes, I was so down for my ex when we broke up
11:45but if he showed up right now in front of me,
11:48I don't think I would go back.
11:49Like I have moved on and I am very content where I am right now
11:54and I have been for a pretty long time.
11:58So double it and give it to the next person.
12:00I'ma wait for the next guy.
12:03Someone asked, did you like your first kiss?
12:06That is a great question.
12:07When I had my first kiss, y'all,
12:09if you want to know the story of it,
12:11I guess go to my first other sit down video.
12:14I don't really know if I explained it in depth.
12:16Not that I really need to
12:18but basically my first kiss,
12:20I literally did not know what I was getting myself into.
12:22I was more excited.
12:23I was like, hell, yeah, what the hell am I doing?
12:26Woo!
12:27Mom, I'm freaking grown up.
12:29I think in the moment, I did enjoy it.
12:31Looking back, I'm like cringing at myself
12:34but yeah, I did like my first kiss, I guess.
12:38I don't know.
12:39Any tips on friendship?
12:40The ones that you should keep or don't keep.
12:42I'm confused if I am a backup.
12:44Girl, if you think you are a backup,
12:47you're gonna have to leave, okay?
12:49You are gonna have to leave.
12:50Listen to me right now.
12:51I am like a person who likes to keep my circle small
12:54and I do not care if I have a lot of la-da-da-da-da-da-da friends.
12:59As long as I have like two to three friends in my life
13:02and they genuinely care about me,
13:04I am so content, okay?
13:07In high school, majority of the time, I had two to three friends
13:10and guess what?
13:11I rather have friends that care about me
13:14and have actual genuine like care for me
13:18than someone who's gonna hang out with me
13:20just because they're bored or something, okay?
13:22That being said, I need to stop saying that being said
13:24but also I think the reason why I'm so okay with having like no friends
13:29is because I am so happy being alone.
13:32Like I love spending time by myself
13:34and I think that stems with a lot of like loneliness
13:37is because I-
13:39What am I saying?
13:40I read somewhere loneliness is only a feeling that occurs
13:44when you are not happy with yourself
13:47or when you're not like satisfied being alone
13:50which makes so much sense
13:51because I never feel lonely
13:54because I love spending time with myself, okay?
13:57Anyways, that doesn't really answer your freaking question.
13:59Tips on friends you should keep or not keep.
14:01The friends that I have personally cut out of my life
14:04are people who have drained me after every single hangout.
14:09I have had friends where I would hang out with them
14:11and I would come out of the hangout like drained
14:14and I had a realization that I shouldn't feel drained
14:16when hanging out with someone.
14:18It's because they were either only talking about boys,
14:20only talking about like parties, nothing productive.
14:24Like our conversations were not productive
14:26and I would come out of there drained.
14:28Like someone sucked my life out of me.
14:30Another instance is when this person was doing things
14:34that I wouldn't want to do.
14:37You know, they say your friends are a good reflection
14:40of who you are and you become what your friends are
14:42and one of my friends were not doing things
14:45that I would genuinely would want to be
14:48and I don't value so I dropped them.
14:51Sounds a little selfish but you become who you hang out with
14:54and I did not want to keep hanging out with someone
14:55that I don't want to be, so.
14:57But the friends you should keep are obviously
15:00people who brighten your day.
15:02Um, I think this is kind of like a given.
15:04Like if they are doing things that you don't even ask
15:07for them to do but they do, like kind gestures and stuff,
15:10keep her.
15:11If they add any type of value, whether that's laughter,
15:15happiness, motivation, inspiration,
15:18I think any friend that adds value to your life,
15:22you should keep in your life.
15:23Sometimes I be yapping too much.
15:25I don't even know if I'm making sense
15:27because I'm yapping so much.
15:28My little sister added a prompt.
15:31Give us a time you and your ex fought
15:32and what was it over?
15:35What a great question, Emily.
15:38Let me take a bite out of my pasta first.
15:41Okay, I looked back at some of my notes of things I would write.
15:46Okay, sometimes in my notes I write down
15:47when things are really frustrating
15:49or when I'm really upset.
15:51When I'm just feeling a really strong emotion,
15:52I just write it down in my notes.
15:54Just found a few stuff, nothing like super specific.
15:57It was very general,
15:58but I don't really remember any like specific fights
16:01any of my exes and I had,
16:03but one of my ex and I, I remember,
16:05every time we would argue,
16:07for example, one of our fights would be
16:10he is not spending enough time on me,
16:12like he wasn't prioritizing me,
16:13which is a very basic fight.
16:15I feel like every couple goes through this,
16:17but that was one of our fights.
16:18He wasn't prioritizing me as much as I wanted him to
16:22and it felt like he,
16:23the fuck he was doing bare minimum
16:25and I was like, get your ass up.
16:26If he wanted to, he would have, okay?
16:28During these type of conversations or arguments
16:31or any type of freaking argument,
16:33actually any type of fight we had,
16:35I feel like this guy victimized himself a lot
16:39and you know what?
16:41That's completely fine.
16:42In some arguments,
16:43I felt like my problems were getting very belittled
16:47because he was victimizing himself
16:49and kind of defending himself by victimizing himself,
16:52if that makes sense.
16:54I would be like, I'm upset over ABC
16:56and he would be like, no, I totally understand,
16:58but like, I'm just like ZYX
17:01and I just like can't do ABC
17:04and I feel so bad because I want to do XYZ
17:07and I'm like, oh my God, you have XYZ?
17:10Like, no, like it's completely fine.
17:12Like ABC, what the fuck, it doesn't even matter.
17:15It kind of get brushed under the rug, you know?
17:17With any argument,
17:19his story or reasoning or X, Y, and Z
17:23would overcompensate my problems
17:26and I would tell him that and he'd be like,
17:28I don't think I'm victimizing.
17:30I'm not even trying to.
17:31No, duh, you're not trying to,
17:33but you are, sweetie.
17:35Okay, this feels really mean,
17:36but that is a few instances where we would argue a lot
17:40and do not make any assumptions
17:41about who I'm talking about
17:44because you'll never know
17:46and I will never tell you.
17:47Ah, the infamous, what is your body count?
17:50It is 107, just kidding.
17:54I'm not telling you hoes that.
17:56My body count stays with me.
17:57I don't even have a body count.
17:58Why would I kill people, you know?
17:59That's so illegal.
18:01I would never kill people,
18:03but are you bi?
18:06This person asked me one, two, three, four, five,
18:10six times, are you bi?
18:12The other day, me and my sister put up a poll like,
18:15oh, like what are some assumptions you have of us,
18:17like me and my sisters
18:18and so many of you guys,
18:21so many of you guys put in Erica is gay
18:24or Erica is bi, Erica likes girls, yada, yada, yada.
18:27Not that there's anything wrong with it.
18:29Girls are freaking beautiful.
18:31Unfortunately, my brain is wired where I only like men.
18:37Unfortunately, no brain chemical in my brain,
18:41no thought in me looks at a girl
18:45and I say, wow, I want to kiss this woman.
18:48Unfortunately, if I liked women,
18:51I think I would be way more happier
18:52because sometimes men can be so freaking complicated.
18:57But yeah, I hope that clears some things up.
19:00I'll look at some TikTok edits and they're like,
19:02oh my God, Erica's so masc.
19:03She's so masc.
19:05I don't know why that is.
19:06I think it's because my sisters
19:08are more feminine looking than me, I guess.
19:11Who is the rudest influencer you've met?
19:14It was during Coachella.
19:15I think it was our second Coachella.
19:16Yeah, I met this influencer.
19:18She lives in LA,
19:19but she also comes to events in New York City sometimes.
19:22She is so rude.
19:23She just has that influencer ego.
19:26A lot of influencers have influencer egos.
19:29I mean, if you give a person with so much followers
19:32and it gets to people's head
19:33and now they think they're the sh** sometimes
19:36and so when other influencers go up to them,
19:38they carry that energy and they're like, yeah.
19:42Anyways, yeah.
19:43I'm obviously not going to drop the name,
19:44but this influencer was really rude
19:46and I was like, what is up your freaking butt, man?
19:49Let me take it out for you
19:50because what the frick?
19:52Why are you acting like that?
19:56A lot of you guys are asking about my love life.
20:02After ending things with my ex,
20:04I think I talked about it in my other sit down video,
20:07but I did go on other dates.
20:09I sat down, talked to other men,
20:12you know, got myself out there.
20:13Little fun experiment, but nothing happened.
20:16Nothing came out of it.
20:18I am currently single.
20:19Frick, I don't even know what to say.
20:20Like, I have a crush.
20:27Just kidding.
20:30No, I don't.
20:32Next question.
20:33That made me uncomfortable.
20:34How do you feel when people on TikTok
20:36make edits of you and your ex
20:37and still ship you together?
20:39Stop it!
20:40Stop making edits of me and my ex.
20:42Stop commenting about me and my ex.
20:44Stop talking about him.
20:45Stop doing anything about him.
20:46He is out of my life.
20:48I'm not talking about it.
20:50Why are you?
20:51Don't talk about him.
20:52This goes for anyone, okay?
20:56Nothing gets triggered in my head,
20:58but I'm just like, bruh, we over.
21:01When was your last hookup?
21:06You guys, you guys, you guys, you guys, you guys.
21:09I feel so awkward like talking about sexual stuff
21:12with you guys.
21:13I don't know why.
21:14In my brain, sometimes I think you guys are like 12 years old.
21:17Comment down below how old you are
21:18and maybe in the next video,
21:20I'll do some girl talk stuff.
21:21I don't know, for some reason,
21:22I feel like you guys are all like 12, 13, 15, 16,
21:26like too young.
21:27If you guys want me to,
21:28I will give you what you want,
21:31even though it'll take me so long to make that video.
21:35My last hookup was...
21:36Let me see.
21:38Sometime in January.
21:39And that's the only information you will be receiving from me.
21:42Teehee.
21:44What's something you regret in your life?
21:46Having a freaking situationship.
21:48Never do that crap.
21:49It's such a waste of time.
21:50Ooh, let's talk about acne, y'all.
21:52I have been breaking out so tremendously these days.
21:55I want to actually cry.
21:58I had days where I literally cannot even stare at the mirror
22:02or leave my house
22:03because I feel so embarrassed.
22:05Because I feel so insecure about my skin.
22:07And then there's some days where I don't even care and I'll go out.
22:10Acne is so mentally draining as well.
22:14But frick, I can't even talk about it
22:16because I don't even know how I do deal with it.
22:18But you really have to train your brain
22:20and keep reminding yourself
22:22that the acne actually looks worse in your eyes.
22:26But other people don't perceive it that way, you know?
22:28If I don't, then I start freaking out
22:30and I'm like, oh my god, I look so ugly.
22:33I'm actually going to jump off a roof
22:36because my skin is so textured.
22:39It's so dry.
22:40It's so flaky.
22:40It's bumpy everywhere.
22:41What the hell?
22:42Nobody likes me.
22:43Nobody wants to talk to me.
22:44But then I have to remind myself,
22:45girl, they don't even care.
22:46Like it's all in your head.
22:48And then on top of that, just drink a lot of water.
22:50Maybe focus on your gut health, your diet.
22:54It's hard, but I don't know, man.
22:56I'm also going through it.
22:57So we in it together.
22:59Anyways, you guys, I don't know.
23:01I think that was it for today's video.
23:03I think I've been yapping for too long.
23:05If you guys want me to do more yap sessions,
23:06let me know and I will do it for you.
23:08But I think that's it for my yap sesh
23:11because my throat hurts and I'm done yapping, okay?
23:15I guess I am clocking out.
23:18Let me know what other videos you guys want me to make
23:21and I will do it for you.
23:22Bye, guys.
23:23Have a good day.
23:25See you in the next video.
23:31Bye.