The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives Season 2 Episode 3
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00:00Hold on, he just lied to your face.
00:02Calm down. I get you're mad, I understand.
00:05Don't tell me what to do.
00:07He just admitted a sex trade.
00:09Did Miranda know that?
00:10I'm just like, I really do love him.
00:12He's also kind of a fucking dickhead.
00:14Wait, stand right here.
00:15Why? What the fuck are you going to do?
00:16Are you going to fucking beat me up?
00:17Don't touch me, don't touch me.
00:18You're not going to throw down right now.
00:20I'm actually kind of shocked.
00:21This is like a marathon.
00:22Can I ask, does he look for this?
00:24Because I thought he did.
00:25Yeah, he kind of does, I think.
00:28Okay.
00:30Some of the girls were supposed to oil us up.
00:32What happened?
00:33They ran off, they ran off.
00:34Someone's fighting.
00:35Okay, so we go.
00:37You're in the middle.
00:38Sorry, sorry.
00:40I didn't know it was you.
00:41Yeah, what's up?
00:42What's up?
00:43It should de-escalate a little bit.
00:44I'm fine, I'm good.
00:46No, I agree.
00:48This is like, this is not, this is like awkward, dude.
00:51Well, he's lying.
00:52You're lying.
00:54Okay, dude, why are you being...
00:57Because I fucking hate you.
00:58You're not my partner.
00:59Yeah, why?
01:00Oh, and you're my partner?
01:01No.
01:02You've had my back so much.
01:03I'm not your partner at all.
01:04So much, yeah, you've had my back all the time, Taylor.
01:06I might be regretting the guest list now.
01:08I did not foresee this happening,
01:09and if I would have known,
01:10I would have nixed like half these people.
01:13Are you happy you're getting your little moment, Chase?
01:15Yeah.
01:16So fun.
01:17No, this is not fun.
01:18This is why you fucking showed up.
01:20I would consider my stay here extremely relevant.
01:22Okay, let's go.
01:23Where'd Kate go?
01:24She doesn't want to be fucking around you right now.
01:27Where's your date?
01:28Right there.
01:29Doesn't seem like he does either.
01:30Really?
01:31Go talk shit on your podcast, Chase.
01:32Don't make fun of my podcast.
01:34It's fucking lame.
01:35I honestly cannot stand Chase right now.
01:37I think that his intentions coming tonight are not pure.
01:40Me and him dated each other for a little over a month,
01:43and I definitely see very bad, toxic traits in him.
01:47He's a clout chaser.
01:48I mean, it literally matches his name.
01:50Chase the clout chaser.
01:51I think that's very fitting for him.
01:53It sucks because it's like, dude, you're damn right.
01:56I want to know what's going on, the truth.
01:58Not just from her side even.
02:00I want to know it from your side.
02:02Like, I've never gotten that.
02:03He's lying.
02:04It's disgusting.
02:05Then, yeah, they can be friends.
02:07You listen to my conversations?
02:08I can talk to him if I want.
02:10Fuck you, Dakota.
02:11You can talk to whoever you want.
02:12Just fuck you.
02:13Yeah, because you lied.
02:14There's multiple times you've lied that now I know are the truth.
02:17Let's talk about what you've done.
02:18That's crazy.
02:19Yeah, let's talk about what you've done.
02:20What you've done.
02:21Oh, you want me to bring you up?
02:22Do you want me to bring you up?
02:23Yeah.
02:24Listen.
02:25Shut the fuck up.
02:26You lied too.
02:27She was calling Walter a scream.
02:28Yeah.
02:29The hell's going on?
02:30You guys should both get out.
02:32No one wants you.
02:33Why would I leave?
02:34Jordan invited me, Mason.
02:35Oh, do you own the house?
02:36Do you own the house?
02:37Look at me.
02:38Do you own the house?
02:39Get the fuck out.
02:40Hey, we're not doing this here.
02:41No, I know.
02:42We're friends.
02:43Get out.
02:44Chase.
02:45Actually, I am going to leave too.
02:46I didn't really want to come anyway, so.
02:47Chase, this wasn't going to happen.
02:48I mean, this is what I was saying.
02:49I didn't mean this to happen.
02:51I have my fucking back with Chase.
02:52Do you have my back?
02:53With Chase?
02:54No, with anything.
02:55Have you had my back?
02:56No, I mean, not now.
02:57Look what you just did.
02:58This is fucking stupid.
02:59Holy shit, Taylor.
03:00Yeah, fuck this.
03:01Dakota.
03:02Dakota.
03:03You guys need to literally stop talking.
03:04Go make up and let's be good.
03:05What do you think I was fucking doing right here with Dakota turning away from the window?
03:06Okay.
03:07I couldn't help.
03:08Oh, well, maybe just look next time.
03:09Chase.
03:10You have a child.
03:11You need to talk to me.
03:12Yeah, okay, Dakota.
03:13Fuck you then.
03:14It's okay.
03:15It's okay.
03:16It's okay.
03:17It's okay.
03:18It's okay.
03:19Shut up.
03:20It's okay.
03:21It's okay.
03:22I feel like so betrayed.
03:23I just expected him to like have my back and I just feel very left alone.
03:28My boyfriend just leaves me and then Chase is over here trying to stay at the party.
03:34It's a nightmare.
03:35I'm going home too.
03:36Okay.
03:37I do think he is a little bit uncomfortable.
03:38I think she would like to leave.
03:39I know, I know.
03:40I literally fucking-
03:41You need to be done.
03:48Your girlfriend just left.
03:49I don't know if you want to go check on her
03:51and make sure she's okay.
03:52That's what a man would do.
03:54Go, go, Kate.
03:55That's the priority right now.
03:56Your girlfriend's literally crying and just left.
03:58So I would take, like, that's probably...
04:02He's upstairs.
04:03Don't touch me again.
04:04All right.
04:06I just see red.
04:08Oh no, you did not just condescendingly be like,
04:11oh, worry about yourself,
04:12while I just watched you neglect your girlfriend
04:15and then touch me.
04:19And walk out of here.
04:21Like, fuck you.
04:22So I immediately go running to Brett
04:24to tell him what just happened.
04:26Brett!
04:27Go fuck yourself.
04:29All right.
04:30Fun party, Jess.
04:31I wanna have a word with Chase.
04:33Me?
04:34He just laid his hands on me.
04:35What the hell?
04:36Yeah.
04:37Oh shit.
04:39Like, I just woke up a monster.
04:42Outside, he's outside.
04:44This guy's gonna die tonight.
04:45Chase is going to die on the front lawn.
04:48Why is he shirtless?
04:50Hey!
04:51Yeah?
04:52What the fuck are you doing?
04:53What do you mean, Brett?
04:54What's happening?
04:55I'm just gonna get his ass.
04:56Just touch my wife.
05:19♪ Bring it to your knees, baby, you're gonna believe ♪
05:35What do you mean, Brett?
05:42Did you just touch my wife?
05:44What?
05:45What's happening?
05:46Oh, this is crazy.
05:47Oh my gosh, wait, what's happening?
05:48No, she told me that my girlfriend walked out,
05:50so I said, where's Brett?
05:51Yeah, and he put your fucking hands on her, dude.
05:53Don't be a dick.
05:54Dude, I put it like this.
05:55Oh, God.
05:56Oh, God.
05:57I did see Chase pass to me.
06:00And from my perspective, it did look like he just touched her
06:04and said, hey, where's Brett, just like asking.
06:07I didn't notice anything aggressive.
06:09So it was surprising to me that Demi got really upset.
06:14Are you serious?
06:15I'm being dead serious right now.
06:16She just told me you put your hands on her.
06:18I said, where's Brett?
06:19Demi, what happened?
06:21He literally just walked by me, and I was like,
06:22you might want to go get your girlfriend.
06:24And he was like, where's your husband?
06:26Did he touch you?
06:27Yeah, he did.
06:28He's a psychopath.
06:29I literally told him this would happen.
06:30I'm like, dude, don't come.
06:32Yeah.
06:33Look how psycho he is.
06:35I am happy Chase got into it more with other people
06:39besides just me.
06:40He's proving my point of how psychotic he is
06:42and manipulative, and he's a gaslighter.
06:46They're kind of seeing him for who he is.
06:49Don't touch my fucking wife, dude, ever.
06:51Don't you ever touch a woman for any fucking reason, dude.
06:54No, I walked by and said, where's Brett?
06:56I fear for Chase's life in this moment,
06:57but in the same breath, I'm like, that's my man.
07:00You crossed a major line.
07:01Dude, I didn't mean to cross a line.
07:03I thought that was normal.
07:04Like, hey, where's Brett?
07:05Taylor.
07:06I just want to watch.
07:07Taylor, Taylor.
07:08I just want to get you close.
07:08Taylor, do not get involved in anything
07:10that's going to happen.
07:11I'm watching her.
07:12I know, I know.
07:12Let's just keep our distance.
07:14Oh, I'm not going up there.
07:16Oh, shit, here we go.
07:17This is going to be a problem.
07:20I can see how mad she is.
07:21She's in this zone.
07:23I want to help, because I have a feeling that it could
07:25get really ugly if I don't.
07:27I wasn't trying to disrespect Demi.
07:29Well, go apologize to her.
07:30I will.
07:30I will right now.
07:31Where is she?
07:32Right here.
07:33Demi.
07:34I walked past you and said, hey, where's Brett?
07:36I didn't mean to.
07:37Bro, take ownership!
07:38You're bullshitting.
07:39Take ownership right now.
07:40Bro, you're bullshitting.
07:41No, take ownership.
07:42I didn't mean to disrespect you.
07:43I thought, where's Brett?
07:44You did, you did.
07:45I'm sorry for disrespecting you.
07:46I didn't mean to do that, and I'm sorry.
07:48Now get the fuck out of here.
07:48All right, I'm sorry.
07:50Didn't mean to do that.
07:51Goodbye.
07:52See you, Chase.
07:52All right.
07:53Yeah, he doesn't even care to think about Kate.
07:55Cool.
07:55You had your moment.
07:56Good job, Chase.
07:57What do you have TikToks made about him?
07:58He's so excited.
08:00I originally invited Chase because I
08:02wanted to get to the bottom of Miranda and Taylor
08:04and what really happened with the swinging scandal,
08:06but we're leaving it on a dot, dot, dot,
08:08and I really hope we figure out the truth soon.
08:11I'm just like where I'm at, just because I'm like,
08:13I want to have a good time.
08:22I can't get over these stupid freaking calls.
08:24Take them off.
08:25Fuck, fuck.
08:28What's going on?
08:29I mean, are you just like embarrassed?
08:30No, I'm just triggered, dude.
08:32I know.
08:33And then I'm like triggered for you.
08:34No, don't be triggered for me.
08:36I'm sorry.
08:36I'm really sorry.
08:40I'm like, we have a good co-parent relationship
08:41Right now, this is just hard because I just
08:43don't want that to like, I feel like this is going
08:46to get in the way of that, you know?
08:47I'm sorry.
08:48I just know you've dealt with him for a long time
08:51and you've gotten a taste, so.
08:54This is so hard because I'm just like, dude,
08:56you have so many good qualities about you.
08:59Why do you do this?
09:00Like, I'm just in shock about everything.
09:02He left.
09:04Yeah.
09:04Good.
09:05The police are here.
09:06No, are they actually?
09:07No, you guys, the police are actually here.
09:09The police are actually here.
09:11Jessie.
09:11I think Jessie's upstairs.
09:13Jessie.
09:14The cops are here.
09:15Cops are here?
09:16Jessie, the police are here.
09:17No.
09:18You're joking.
09:20I'm going to cry.
09:21Are you serious right now?
09:22We haven't even been here two months.
09:24We are new to this neighborhood.
09:25It's our first gathering.
09:27Hi, I'm so sorry.
09:28Did you guys get a complaint?
09:30Yeah, we got reports of people arguing.
09:32Yes.
09:33Jordan and I are wanting to die right now
09:35and just like hide under a rock because we're definitely
09:38getting kicked out of this neighborhood.
09:39Yeah, there were a few people here who were arguing.
09:42They ran out here, and it continued out here
09:44because I told them to get out.
09:45So we've settled down, but not at all.
09:47No, it was just a lot of screaming.
09:49But we have a lot of people here who like shut it down,
09:51and then they left.
09:52No, you're fine.
09:53You're fine.
09:54You didn't do anything.
09:55You're fine.
09:56I don't know why.
09:57Sorry, I just got scared for a second.
09:58Sorry, my brain, I'm like, I'm like in thinking mode.
10:01I'm like, can we hurry?
10:02Hot.
10:03Their spouses or partners here still?
10:05No.
10:06They left with them?
10:07No, they went alone.
10:08It was like exes.
10:10It's like a tangled web.
10:12Have you watched Secret Life of the Wicked?
10:15OK, I'm like, that would be the best way to describe it.
10:17Like there's going to be any retaliation?
10:19No, these two were the problem, and they left.
10:20So we're good now.
10:21OK, thank you guys.
10:22I'm so sorry.
10:24Now let's go have a good time.
10:25Now let's party.
10:26Woo!
10:27Give me a kiss.
10:28I'm just trying to listen.
10:29I don't really know what's going on, but I don't know why.
10:32I think what Taylor was just about
10:33is that he like manipulated Dakota to like hear him out.
10:37First tapping her back, but I don't know.
10:39And so Dakota couldn't have Taylor's back.
10:40He went straight to it.
10:41I don't know.
10:43OK, what do we do?
10:44We got to go dance.
10:45I don't know, because they're pretty so awkward now.
10:46OK, then we go down and dance.
10:47Should we just go down there, and let's just
10:49go down there where they're at?
10:50OK, let's go down there, and let's just go down there
10:52where they're at.
10:53OK, let's go down there, and let's just go down there
10:55where they're at.
10:56OK, can everyone come to the living room?
10:58We're just going to reset the intention of the night.
11:01I'm feeling very conflicted about Chippendales
11:03at this point, because is this going to lighten the mood,
11:05or is everyone in such a bad mood
11:07that this is just going to be a total flop?
11:09I really hope that Jordan and Brett can pull it together
11:12and just really shift the vibe of this party.
11:15All right, you guys.
11:15We have a little surprise for everyone.
11:17Now that the drama is done, we're
11:19going to do a little performance.
11:21So everyone get ready.
11:22Who's excited?
11:23Guest of honor is Jenny Boo.
11:27Guest of honor?
11:28What?
11:29Guest of honor?
11:30What?
11:31I'm here, baby.
11:32Get ready to live.
11:34All right.
11:35Oh, baby.
11:37I trust you.
11:39OK, any more time, and it's awkward, so.
11:42We got this.
11:43All right.
11:46This is a really good moment for Zach to be
11:48able to show off his dance skills.
11:51This is a really good moment for Zach to redeem himself.
11:53Bring on the Chippendales dancers.
11:55Come on, Zach.
11:56Don't let me down.
11:57Woo!
11:58Woo!
11:59Yeah!
11:59Yeah!
12:00Woo!
12:01Woo!
12:02Woo!
12:03Woo!
12:03Woo!
12:04Woo!
12:05Woo!
12:06Woo!
12:07Woo!
12:07Woo!
12:08Woo!
12:09Woo!
12:10Woo!
12:11Woo!
12:11Woo!
12:12Woo!
12:13Woo!
12:14Woo!
12:15Woo!
12:15Woo!
12:16Woo!
12:17Woo!
12:18Woo!
12:19Woo!
12:20Come on!
12:21Woo!
12:21Woo!
12:22Woo!
12:23Yeah!
12:24Woo!
12:25Woo!
12:25Woo!
12:26Woo!
12:27Woo!
12:28Woo!
12:29Woo!
12:29Woo!
12:30Woo!
12:31Woo!
12:32Woo!
12:33This is the most embarrassing thing
12:34I've ever seen in my entire life.
12:35I literally am thinking it's a joke.
12:37I'm watching Zach the whole time, and he looks pissed off.
12:40Woo!
12:41Woo!
12:42Woo!
12:43Woo!
12:43Woo!
12:44Woo!
12:45Woo!
12:46Woo!
12:47Woo!
12:47Woo!
12:48Woo!
12:49Woo!
12:50I don't know whether to have a good time right now
12:53because I know that this is making Zach uncomfortable.
12:57And because of how both the me and Jesse
13:00treated my relationship prior to this,
13:02it makes me question their intentions.
13:04Woo!
13:05Woo!
13:06Woo!
13:06Woo!
13:07Woo!
13:08Woo!
13:09Woo!
13:10Woo!
13:11Woo!
13:11Woo!
13:12I'm looking at Zach's face, and he
13:15does not look thrilled at all.
13:16Woo!
13:17Woo!
13:18Woo!
13:19Woo!
13:20Woo!
13:20Woo!
13:21Woo!
13:22Woo!
13:23Woo!
13:24Woo!
13:24Woo!
13:25Woo!
13:26Woo!
13:27Honestly, the show must go on.
13:29Woo!
13:29Woo!
13:30Woo!
13:31Woo!
13:32Woo!
13:33Woo!
13:33Woo!
13:34Woo!
13:35Woo!
13:36Woo!
13:37That was fun.
13:38That was hilarious.
13:38Was that fun?
13:39Yes, it was.
13:40Did you not see it as a performance?
13:42No, I love that you seemed to do it.
13:44I'm telling you.
13:45OK, you killed it.
13:46No, you killed it.
13:47You're welcome.
13:48Yes!
13:49You guys all were good sports.
13:51Yes.
13:52Good sports, and that was fun.
13:54You look good.
13:56I'm sorry.
13:57Oh, I'm fine.
13:57It just, that's, yeah.
13:59What even happened?
14:00Like, what triggered that?
14:02Well, Chase walked in the door, and then that's what happened.
14:04Well, he just went straight to Dakota.
14:06Yeah, why were you mad at him?
14:08Because he was, like, not having my back.
14:10He was, like, believing me.
14:11Dakota was, like, interrogating her with Chase.
14:12Like, he was, like, is that true?
14:14He was believing Chase.
14:15He just wanted to feel validated,
14:16and Chase was validating him in that moment.
14:18Yeah.
14:18So then he hopped on the train.
14:20Yeah, so I was like, fuck you, and fuck you too.
14:23At this point, Dakota has Chase's back,
14:25so I don't currently know what's going on with our relationship
14:27and where it goes from here.
14:28It's really weird to look someone in the eyes
14:30and then be able to just, like, lie to you.
14:32It's because he's a narcissist, and so is Dakota.
14:35I would think he should have done is defend you
14:37in that situation.
14:38Exactly.
14:39He should have been interrogating you with Chase.
14:40Well, who cares?
14:41He's the worst.
14:42You need to not entertain him.
14:43But he's also the father of my child, so, like.
14:45Sure.
14:46And he should only be that far.
14:48Woo!
14:51That was cute.
14:52I want you guys to do it again.
14:53Round two.
14:54But on me this time.
15:01Well, you better be.
15:02I'm with the Rel after Jippendales.
15:04I'm not going through that again.
15:18Let's go.
15:19Oh, my God.
15:20Get up on the board.
15:21What the heck?
15:22Beep.
15:23Ah!
15:24You won't go up there.
15:25He needs some candy.
15:26Get this kid some candy.
15:28They're going to get you.
15:29They're going to get you.
15:29Run, run, run.
15:30Say, happy Halloween.
15:31I have been dealing with so much shit lately.
15:33There's a lot of drama going on and mom talk at this moment.
15:36So I'm looking forward to meeting up
15:38with my sisters for Halloween to just take a break.
15:41I think they're done.
15:42Oh, my God.
15:43Oh, my God.
15:44Oh, my God.
15:45Oh, my God.
15:46Oh, my God.
15:48OK, Haven.
15:49You ready?
15:50Don't pick your nose.
15:55With my family, it's important every holiday for us
15:58to get the kids together so that they can spend
16:00time doing fun traditions.
16:03Perfect.
16:05Easy, see?
16:06Only took like 30 minutes.
16:07My sister's costumes are definitely my favorite part
16:10of Halloween this year.
16:11Wait, turn back.
16:13One of them showed up as me, and the other showed up as Whitney.
16:15She's wearing the classic headband.
16:18And on the back, she has a sign that says, I'm never wrong.
16:21Oh, my gosh.
16:24It was so good.
16:27This is where I get all my pettiness from.
16:29Us?
16:30Yes.
16:31Well, from mom.
16:34We just did girls night, or like a happy hour
16:37at Miranda's house.
16:39Wait, I was not expecting that name.
16:41Is that awkward in the same room with her?
16:43Well, the only reason I went was to tell her how I felt.
16:48But I was a little mean.
16:52I think I said a little too much, and I felt bad.
16:54I just feel like convenient timing,
16:56everything feels kind of fake to me about it.
16:59I was edging on the side of anger
17:01when I went into the conversation.
17:02I think I was just being a little too mean.
17:04I think I was just being a little too mean.
17:06I was edging on the side of anger
17:08when I went into the conversation.
17:09I think I came off a little too harsh.
17:11I just feel like, in our house, I feel like we
17:14grew up in a lot of anger.
17:16And so when we express our feelings, it's anger.
17:18But just holding it back, yeah.
17:19It's like holding and holding and holding
17:21in until all of a sudden it explodes and you're mad.
17:23And it comes out so wrong.
17:23Yeah, I think that's what's happening right now.
17:25But I was just surprised to see Miranda defend Taylor
17:28during the Halloween party.
17:30Hey, we're not doing this here.
17:31No, no, we're not.
17:31Get out.
17:32Chase, this wasn't going to happen here.
17:35I just let too many things happen for too many years.
17:38And I'm like, actually, no, I'm kind
17:39of done taking people's shit.
17:41I'm at a point in my life where I'm like,
17:42I want to protect my peace.
17:43And I want to be able to heal myself,
17:46my skin, and all my chronic health issues.
17:49I think it's related to deeper-rooted trauma.
17:51This is the current state of my skin.
17:54It's just so rough because I've literally been doing,
17:57I've been cutting out sugar, gluen.
18:01I've been cutting back on all my dairy.
18:03It just felt like it's getting worse.
18:05It's basically like I've been going
18:07through an autoimmune disease without an autoimmune disease.
18:10But recently, I've been working on finding my voice
18:12and learning how to express my feelings.
18:14And now my skin's been doing a lot better.
18:18It's hard because when my face is good, my body's bad.
18:21And then it'll swap where my face is horrible.
18:23And my body's great.
18:24So I just need to get my whole body in tune with each other.
18:28But Chase always knows, too, like, I can't really
18:31express my emotions unless it's like anger
18:34because I don't know how to validate people's feelings
18:35because we didn't get that growing up.
18:37And so when people are trying to validate their feelings,
18:39I'm just like in attack mode.
18:41And I feel like it's just from not expressing
18:43my emotions for however many years, 24 years.
18:47Especially you.
18:48Like, especially you.
18:51I feel like a lot of it is super related to, like, trauma
18:55and things that happen and just all of that.
18:59Yeah.
19:04I was sexually abused for about, like, four or five years.
19:10I was young.
19:11And so I wasn't, I didn't exactly know what was going on.
19:14And then when I was 15, I was like,
19:16it can't go on any longer.
19:18So Halloween of 2015, I ended up going to my mom.
19:23And I felt like she didn't believe me.
19:29I feel like that's when I stopped.
19:32I feel like that's when I stopped telling people.
19:41After that point, it was like I was hesitant to say anything
19:44to anybody because I was like, well,
19:46no one's going to believe me.
19:48I think it just silenced me in a way.
19:53I think that was like the turning point
19:56where my body shifted and was like,
19:58every time I'm feeling something or feeling like anything hard,
20:02I can't even now.
20:04It's like I can't express it.
20:07It's a tricky situation to navigate
20:09because it's like I don't know where to go from here.
20:11But I think the most important thing is finding the people
20:14that you can trust and the people
20:15that you feel comfortable around.
20:17I just feel like on Halloween, that
20:19was like the last time that I was open.
20:29I feel like that's just when I lost my voice.
20:34It's such a deep wound of just hurt
20:37that I have a lot of fear of having to relive it
20:40and feel that all again.
20:41OK, I need a break.
20:42But maybe I need to try going to therapy
20:46and finally allow myself to heal.
20:50I would say let's hug, but we don't do that.
20:58Talk to me, talk to me, talk.
21:00Say you'll give me all, give me all.
21:02It's nice to get some time in the morning for us.
21:06The Halloween party was intense.
21:09No, I know.
21:10The Chippendales situation, I think
21:11that this is another jab from Jesse and Demi
21:15at Jen and I's expense.
21:16I don't know in what world they think
21:17that they have some right to give us exposure therapy.
21:21To force something onto someone and especially not tell them,
21:24I don't think you can claim to have a good intention.
21:27I, like a man, went and sat down with them,
21:31told them my issues I had with them.
21:32I talked to them about the issues they had with me.
21:35I said some super hurtful things to Jen.
21:37I look like the biggest hypocrite in the world.
21:39I don't feel like that's who I am
21:41and that's not who I want to be.
21:43Four days later at their Halloween party
21:46with 100 friends we don't know, we're
21:48made into the comedy act so that they can laugh.
21:51It's a different story if Brett reaches out and says,
21:55Zach, are you cool with this?
21:56Or even the girls.
21:57I mean, did they ask you if they could?
22:00No.
22:03So I mean, it shows a lot of who they are as people.
22:05I did hear Jesse and Demi kind of bring it up jokingly
22:08when I was at Jesse's salon.
22:12But I didn't think they were serious, to be honest.
22:15I knew partially of what they were going to do.
22:19Brett is going to come in like normal costume,
22:22rip it off as like a Chippendales.
22:24I love that.
22:25But I didn't realize how bad this was upset Zach.
22:28I just wanted to be the fun friend who just said, yeah,
22:32and that it would be so awesome.
22:34But I didn't really question their intentions behind it.
22:37And I also didn't ask myself how I felt about it.
22:40They're shitty friends.
22:41It's like, this is our marriage.
22:43This isn't a game.
22:44And like, real friends wouldn't do that, genuinely.
22:47Yeah.
22:48I feel like I'm tossed in the middle
22:52of having to pick between my marriage
22:55and all the girls and mom talk.
22:57It definitely feels like I have no one to turn to right now.
23:02And that's really hard.
23:03It's just honestly a toxic environment
23:05and not the kind of place where I want to be,
23:07like, honestly raising our kids.
23:09I just wish that after the party didn't put the frustration
23:15you're feeling towards Demi and Jesse on me.
23:18After the Halloween party, Zach got upset about it.
23:21And he was jumping to conclusions
23:23and putting his frustration on me
23:25without getting the whole picture or the whole story.
23:28It was definitely triggering for me.
23:30I'm not frustrated at you, Jen.
23:31I just were continually going to these parties
23:34and spending time with these people
23:36who clearly don't have good intentions
23:38for you or for our family.
23:40I just also want you to acknowledge the frustration
23:42you put on me.
23:44Yeah, I am frustrated because I feel
23:46like I'm having to stick up and defend our family.
23:49And it's making me look like the bad guy
23:51when these are your friends.
23:53Like, if my friends were doing these kind of things to us,
23:56I would confront them and or I would drop them.
23:59So much was happening.
24:00I didn't feel like there was room for me to confront them.
24:04It felt like Chippendales all over again.
24:06Just like you being...
24:07Jen.
24:08I'm not to the...
24:09Okay, I'm not...
24:10Not to the extent...
24:11Hold on.
24:11No, not to the...
24:12Okay, don't eat that.
24:14You just listen to me real quick.
24:16Will you just listen to me?
24:17Not to the extent.
24:19Obviously, you're frustrated about the whole thing
24:21and you're frustrated about...
24:23Not at you, at Jesse and to me.
24:25Yes.
24:26Because they're not good friends.
24:27I know, but I wish you wouldn't put that frustration on me
24:29and you would ask me how I'm feeling
24:31than like how you're feeling.
24:33But you bring me to these parties with your friends
24:36and then I get put in these situations.
24:38I think there is a lot of things
24:40that I do need to take accountability for.
24:43I just don't think everyone sees the full context
24:46and doesn't see the other side of things.
24:48Like you also have to own up to like
24:50how you treat me after these situations
24:52that I'm not putting myself into.
24:53I just honestly felt like pretty like alone.
24:58Okay, I...
24:59Just...
25:00I can't do this.
25:02I'm sorry.
25:04This...
25:05Are you going to hear me out?
25:06Are you going to listen to me?
25:07Are you just going to walk away?
25:08I would like to take a break for a second.
25:10Will you please cut the camera?
25:11I don't want to do this.
25:12I don't want to take a break.
25:14I want to openly have this conversation.
25:16I'm not down to have this conversation right now.
25:19This...
25:20I'm not getting this twisted on me again.
25:23You're making it about you and how you feel.
25:25You haven't considered how I felt about the situation.
25:27Okay, we can film this later.
25:28I'm not going to do this.
25:29I'm not going to have this flipped back on me again
25:33because you have crazy ass friends.
25:36I've been doing so much work to handle things differently,
25:39to go about things differently.
25:41And Jen is such a sweet pure-hearted person
25:46that I think...
25:47Yeah, sometimes I feel like I kind of get a little bit...
25:53I don't know.
25:55I don't want to say anything bad about Jen.
25:59I need you to own up to this.
26:00I'm not being quiet about it.
26:02And if you don't want to be on camera, then you can go.
26:04If you don't want to be a part of this,
26:05you don't want to be a part of this marriage, you can go.
26:07And I'm only moving forward in this marriage
26:09if you take accountability.
26:16We're going to play and have some fun, fun.
26:19We're going to rise up to the sun, sun.
26:22Because we are one and everyone.
26:26And we are here to have some fun.
26:32Baby number three.
26:34So I get out of bed and I'm headed to the bathroom.
26:39And then all of a sudden this gush of water comes out.
26:43TMI, sorry.
26:44And I'm in labor.
26:47You ready?
26:48I'm so excited.
26:50It's time, though.
26:51I heard there was drama at Jesse's Halloween party.
26:54But lucky me, I can't afford being involved in any big drama
26:57because I'm about to give birth and I'm so excited
26:59to start this new chapter in our lives.
27:02Okay, so this is your room.
27:04This is where we're going to have the birthday party.
27:06This is so exciting.
27:07Yeah.
27:10So I really appreciate you carrying our child
27:12and all the love that you've given me and our children
27:15and the love you're going to give this baby.
27:17Being a mom is one of the greatest callings
27:21a woman can have.
27:22Big breaths.
27:23Breathe in your nose, out your mouth.
27:26You are so strong, Whitney.
27:28That's genuinely the closest I feel to heaven.
27:31Big, slow breaths.
27:34You got it.
27:35It's the greatest miracle, the greatest blessing
27:39anyone could ever experience.
27:41And there's a certain significance
27:43with having this baby with Connor
27:45because we did go through so much
27:48and we worked so hard to get this relationship
27:51that we have today.
27:52I'll forever be so grateful that I
27:53gave Connor a second chance.
27:55This baby wouldn't be here if we were able to overcome
27:58what we went through.
27:59It's okay.
28:00I have you.
28:00I have you.
28:01I have you.
28:02There's no other person I'd love to be in this room
28:05and experience this with than my husband, Connor.
28:08Oh my god, Whitney.
28:11Oh my god.
28:13What do we got?
28:14It's a boy.
28:15Oh my god.
28:16Oh my god.
28:17She has so much hair.
28:19Good job.
28:20You did it.
28:22I know how easy it is to get caught up
28:24in the world and worldly things.
28:27But every time I'm holding a newborn or a baby
28:33or one of my children, I'm reminded this is what matters.
28:37This is what matters in this life.
28:39I've been waiting for my whole life.
28:43I love you.
28:44Cause baby, love never felt like this.
28:48So easy, so effortless.
28:51He's here.
28:52He's beautiful.
28:53Love never felt like this.
29:04Some of the girls and I are getting together
29:05with our kids today.
29:06We are taking them to a farm that has
29:08a lot of pumpkins and rides.
29:10You guys look so cute.
29:11Thanks.
29:12You too.
29:13Jen's not here.
29:14She's kind of been off the grid.
29:15I'm OK with it.
29:16Hey, Lorraine.
29:17There she is.
29:18Hi, baby.
29:19Oh, you look cute.
29:21I'm excited to see the kids play together
29:23and just have a fun, lighthearted day.
29:24Do they have a water?
29:25Hello.
29:26Hi.
29:27How are you?
29:28Good.
29:29How are you?
29:30Fine.
29:31Go find me a ride?
29:32Yeah, let's do it.
29:34Jagger!
29:35What's happening here?
29:37Arlo, Stacey.
29:38Oh, hi.
29:39I'm, like, shaking.
29:40I don't want to be stuck if it's hot.
29:42Put your hands in the air.
29:44Oh.
29:45Wait, I actually don't like it.
29:47I don't like it either.
29:49My pussy's tingling.
29:50I don't like it.
29:51Oh, my god.
29:52Oh, my god.
29:53Oh, my god.
29:54Oh, my god.
29:55Oh, wow.
29:56That's fun.
29:57Let's go play in the corn.
29:59Jagger, come on.
30:00We're going to eat our food first.
30:01OK, Jagger, don't put it in your mouth.
30:03Arlo, don't throw it.
30:04Yeah, I'm up with that.
30:05That's so nice.
30:06Do you have hand sanitizer?
30:07I know.
30:08I was like, Macy's going to ask someone
30:09to clean the table first.
30:10Yep.
30:11Great.
30:12I don't like the germs, you guys.
30:14Have you talked to Whitney at all?
30:16Jen and I went yesterday and got her a gift.
30:19Wait, I want to know how you and Jen got so close.
30:21Arlo.
30:22Just hanging out.
30:24I'm going to kind of have to win these girls over
30:27if I want to come back to mom talk.
30:29And I think Jen and I have a lot of similarities.
30:31I can relate to her because I know what it's like
30:34to have your marriage so publicly scrutinized.
30:37No one understands unless they've been there.
30:39It feels like I'm having to explain myself
30:41when I should just be receiving support.
30:45And they see this.
30:46Yeah.
30:47And there's, like, this all underneath.
30:48Yeah.
30:49That people don't see.
30:50I support your marriage.
30:51And if you guys are working through it,
30:53I'm rooting for you guys.
30:54The girls aren't the biggest fans of Jen right now,
30:58but I'm just trying not to rock the boat
31:00because I'm not even in mom talk yet.
31:02I think she just feels alone with the whole Zach thing
31:06because she doesn't want to upset him.
31:09Yeah.
31:10But then she also feels like if she opens up to you guys,
31:12she's like, I already kind of know, like, their answer.
31:14Well, to be fair, when she's open up to us,
31:16it's either a lie or Zach doesn't know she's saying it,
31:18and that's what gets her in trouble.
31:20She's done things that have bitten her own self in the ass.
31:23So are you guys all not cool with Jen?
31:25I feel like I'm just not her biggest fan
31:27for what she's done to, like, you, especially.
31:29What'd she do to you?
31:31Um...
31:33She's just kind of vindictive.
31:37I was one of the girls that went on the Italy trip
31:39at Vanderpump Villa this summer,
31:40and I know for a fact that nothing happened
31:42between me and the guys.
31:44Are you doing credit?
31:45We will.
31:47So you're gonna be hanging out with us.
31:49Jen was definitely judging Demi
31:52for being flirty with these guys.
31:54If that's okay in your marriage,
31:56I'm not judging you for it.
31:58But then Jen turned around and flipped it
32:00as a way to use it against her, almost as blackmail.
32:02We had a sit-down talk with her and Zach,
32:04and we were talking about
32:06just the disconnect between what she was saying
32:08versus what Zach was saying.
32:10But instead of, like, taking the opportunity
32:12to, like, focus on that, she took the opportunity
32:14to, like, try to throw me under the bus
32:16and, like, was like, well, what about villas
32:18and what about... And I'm like, okay, hold on.
32:20We're talking about you and Zach.
32:22Like, none of this concerns you in any way.
32:24I think that when Jen is in situations
32:26where she feels that she's ganged up on
32:28and isolated, she likes to deflect
32:30and kind of throw out whatever dagger she can
32:33to take the heat off of herself.
32:35Her motives are not good,
32:37so I'm just like, until I see different,
32:39like, this is where we are.
32:41There's just so much I feel like I have to catch up on.
32:43Yeah.
32:44Jagger's chomping at the bit to do something.
32:46Should we go take them on a ride?
32:48Don't put them in someone's shoes, Jagger. Stop.
32:51Jagger, do you want to go see the animals
32:53with your friends?
32:54Yeah.
32:55Okay, I'll take you guys.
32:56Toko wants to go with you guys, too.
32:58Okay, let's do the corn maze.
32:59Yay.
33:00Okay, let's hope we come out friends.
33:02Truce, no matter how this goes down.
33:04If you have to pee, just go in there.
33:06Yeah, just squat right here.
33:08Good old times.
33:13Miranda was, like, another level of, like, friendship.
33:15Like, she was my best friend.
33:17Like, we would talk two hours a day on the phone.
33:19I'd see her probably three times a week,
33:21and it ended overnight.
33:23If you're gonna, like, come into our circle again
33:25and come into mom talk, I would hope at this point
33:27you're willing to, like, be open and honest,
33:29because if you're not, I will clear the air.
33:31I won't be called a liar,
33:34because everything I've said is true.
33:36I'm ready to move on.
33:38Well, how have you been feeling about being around me?
33:41Yeah, I'm, like, almost maybe in shock.
33:43Like, we should have a conversation,
33:46because your stories still are, like, a little different,
33:48and so I'm just confused.
33:50I feel like a lot of animosity still, like, about the whole situation.
33:52The only time I, like, touched anyone
33:54or did anything with anyone was kissing.
33:56I'm hoping Taylor is ready
33:58to really have
34:01what I hope is the final conversation.
34:03I just want to clear it up once and for all.
34:05There wasn't anything beyond that.
34:13What I wanted to get across was that I was, like,
34:16When Taylor said everyone was hooking up with everyone,
34:18I'm like, that wasn't the case. I didn't hook up with anyone.
34:20I think when people think, like, swinging parties
34:22was not really, like,
34:24I guess for me, like, what I would picture.
34:26Maybe we have a different definition of involvement then.
34:29I didn't mean sex.
34:31I just meant we were all doing things with each other.
34:33I don't want to get it twisted.
34:35The height of what I was involved in was kissing people.
34:37It wasn't just kissing.
34:41I don't know what to say about it.
34:43Yeah, it's true, but, like, also not.
34:45I feel like it's, like, we did everything Love Island does.
34:48Have you seen Love Island where they play the games?
34:50But I was just kind of like...
34:52Plus a little more.
34:54No one had sex, as far as I know, so...
34:58Yes, you didn't have sex with the husband,
35:00but, like, you didn't just kiss people,
35:02though you participated in all these things.
35:04I mean, I could just start listening.
35:06We did have sex in the shower with our husbands all together.
35:09We also had sex in the same bed at the same time.
35:13We would blindfold each other,
35:15and you would have to guess which husband you were kissing,
35:18and a couple of times we did that.
35:20We also had a night where it was just four husbands
35:23and you and me.
35:25They asked us to go get in short shorts, so we did,
35:27and then we came down, and we were so drunk,
35:29we were making out, and we were on top of each other,
35:31and they all filmed it on their phones.
35:33Um...
35:35I mean...
35:37Taylor's not wrong.
35:39At this point, I don't even know if I should say,
35:41No, I'm not a swinger.
35:43You guys can call it whatever you want.
35:45You tell me if I know or not.
35:47How are you guys feeling about Miranda?
35:49I feel better about Miranda than I feel about Whitney.
35:51When I'm around her, I enjoy being around her.
35:53That's what I'm saying.
35:55I'm glad to hear that maybe you guys are softening on her.
35:57I don't have any anger now.
35:59I'm still hesitant of the timing of things
36:01and the intentions, and she knows that.
36:03The only thing that makes me nervous
36:05is just that she is attaching herself to, like, Jen.
36:07Yes.
36:09Like, attach yourself to us.
36:11Yeah, I'm like, come on, join our group.
36:13I wonder what they're talking about.
36:15Being called a bad friend
36:17was, like, what I took really personal,
36:19and so I guess, like, this is, for me,
36:21like, what this is.
36:23I am here, and I came here
36:25to take accountability.
36:27So, yeah, we've had sex
36:29in the same room, like, we've had, like,
36:31like, we had crazy parties in Mexico,
36:33and I'm like, I don't think you deserve
36:35to be lied to.
36:38Yeah, there were a handful of things
36:40that happened that I am still,
36:42like, yeah, that's so embarrassing.
36:44I'm not gonna deny that.
36:46If I could go back, I would've handled everything differently.
36:48I think that I really let
36:50the fear of being perceived
36:52get the best of me.
36:54I just felt so out of control
36:56and so wronged.
36:58It was difficult for me to have a lot of,
37:00like, empathy for her,
37:02but I wish that I would've come out
37:04with what really did happen
37:06rather than denying everything.
37:08That probably did make her feel worse
37:10and look worse, and that wasn't my intentions.
37:12It was very much,
37:14I'm terrified, and I have a reputation
37:16as a Mormon to uphold,
37:18and I regret that.
37:20The sooner that we get through these hard conversations,
37:22the sooner we can hopefully
37:24build a genuine
37:26relationship and friendship.
37:28I just wanna move on, and
37:30leave it all behind us,
37:32for your sake, for my sake, for everyone's sake.
37:34And I won't make you go into any details.
37:36If you're, like, saying, yeah, we did crazy stuff
37:38along with, like, kissing,
37:40then that makes sense to me.
37:42I just say I wanted to make sure we were, like,
37:44on the same page.
37:48I do feel like Miranda is trying to take the steps
37:50of admitting the things that she has done
37:52and just taking accountability.
37:54I know her very well, and I think there's a part of her that's
37:56very uncomfortable admitting those
37:58things, knowing
38:00that family and friends
38:02are gonna know and see and hear about it,
38:04and it's like, I have a really soft spot for her
38:06in my heart, and I still
38:08do love her.
38:10The whole, like, chase thing and, like,
38:12his feelings and all of that
38:14was just, like, gut-wrenching.
38:16You know, I'm feeling, like, double betrayal.
38:18Betrayal from, like, my husband and from my best friend.
38:20There was just so much that I couldn't
38:22do the friendship anymore, and I understand
38:24that that, like, wasn't fair to you.
38:26Given how close
38:28we were, I, like, I could see how
38:30betraying that would be. I would be
38:32really sad about it. So I
38:34hold that on
38:36me, too, a lot. So it's not
38:38fair to hold resentment with you,
38:40because I'm just like, I was not a good friend at that time.
38:46Sorry.
38:48I was a really bad
38:50friend, and
38:52maybe I was a bad person, and
38:54I'm sure Taylor can relate,
38:56but it was a lot.
38:58We both did to each other.
39:00I feel like
39:02that's fair to just let it go. Like, I'm, like,
39:04leave Taylor
39:062022, like, in the past,
39:08because I feel like I'm a completely different person. I don't know if
39:10you can tell, but, yeah, I just, like,
39:12I do not like that version of myself,
39:14and I think that's why I'm stuck. I'm, like, not moved on
39:16because I'm, like,
39:18I don't know. I don't know, like,
39:20I can't even, like, actually talk about it, because it's, like...
39:22I understand.
39:24I just don't know how someone can be, like, that horrible.
39:26You?
39:28Yeah, like, that person I was, like, very selfish.
39:32I feel like I was such, like, a good person
39:34up until, like, those, like, that time,
39:36and, like, I was so loyal
39:38to my husband, to my best friend.
39:40Like, I told him, like, a lot, like,
39:42I'm not gonna do this, because I'm, like,
39:44I'm a loyal wife, and then
39:46I think as things went on, like,
39:48I was...
39:50I got weaker and weaker the more we did it.
39:52I don't know how I did
39:54that to him, and, like, you.
39:56I don't know.
39:58I just... I hate her. Like, I hate her.
40:00Yeah, but, Taylor, if you
40:02weren't her, you
40:04wouldn't be who you are now.
40:06Which, I don't know. It's a good thing, like,
40:08I'm, like, in and out.
40:10Yeah, but do you not think that you're better than where you were?
40:12Yeah, I'm a better person, hopefully.
40:14Yeah, absolutely. Like, I told you
40:16how I've seen it in you.
40:18I think it's more than fair
40:20for you to give yourself a little bit of grace.
40:22Miranda and I talking here
40:24does make me realize
40:26I do miss the friendship. Her and I
40:28have, like, this natural chemistry that we
40:30just, like, gravitate towards each
40:32other, and I have never had someone like that.
40:34But I don't know if I want to be
40:36her best friend. Like, obviously, there's a ton
40:38of history, so time will tell with that.
40:48I'm losing sight of seeing it all
40:50Losing the fight, quitting the fall
40:52I'm just getting tired
40:54of standing tall
40:56Hey, hey
40:58It's a long way down
41:00It's a long way
41:02down from the...
41:04Hello. Hi, Mikayla.
41:06How the heck have you been?
41:08Busy. Yeah.
41:10Lots going on. So, what are you thinking
41:12that you want to focus on today?
41:14Maybe retouch on some
41:16trauma. Okay.
41:18Yeah, so I'd like to
41:20maybe see if we can go back to that 14
41:22year old, you know, Mikayla.
41:24Who do you think you want to take your power
41:26back from the most?
41:30My mom.
41:32I think it's also maybe just becoming comfortable
41:34with keeping it in for so long
41:36and shoving it down
41:38and the fear of bringing it
41:40up as well.
41:42Yeah. Don't know how to process
41:44it, so just keep it down.
41:46Is it getting harder
41:48to keep it there?
41:50Are you noticing it have more
41:52effects? Definitely have
41:54more effects, I would say.
41:56Notice it spilling
41:58out into different relationships or
42:00different areas.
42:02Growing up,
42:04I think we all kind of inherited the trait of
42:06you push everything under the rug, you don't
42:08talk about it until it gets to the boiling
42:10point and for me, it was presenting
42:12itself in physical ways and it was like
42:14I couldn't run away from it anymore
42:16and so I was like, okay, well I'm just going to go in
42:18and I'm going to head strong, just attack it.
42:20I still get like triggered by
42:22it and I still have the trauma response.
42:24So sometimes to take your
42:26power back, we need to do
42:28things now that you didn't have a
42:30chance to do when you were younger, right?
42:32So I want you to channel into
42:34the feistiest, snarkiest,
42:36meanest,
42:38bitchiest
42:40piece of yourself.
42:44I'm going to represent the person that
42:46was abusing you and I
42:48want you to come at me. I want you to say
42:50what you really feel
42:52about me.
42:54You're a piece of shit. I can't do it.
42:56I'm like, I can't do it.
42:58What else would you say to me?
43:00I don't know.
43:02I'm not comfortable.
43:04It is uncomfortable, Michaela, for sure.
43:06It's uncomfortable for you to have
43:08to live with us, but you have a
43:10right to say you're peace.
43:12Mm-hmm.
43:14You have a right to say you had no
43:16right.
43:18You took advantage of me.
43:22I was a little girl
43:24and you
43:26hurt me
43:28in a way you had no business
43:30ever putting hands on me.
43:32Mm-hmm.
43:38I'm not your piece of shit.
43:42And you had no right to do it to me
43:44and take so much
43:46from me.
43:48And I feel a lot of
43:50hate towards you
43:52for it.
43:56I have to just not.
43:58You motherfucker.
44:02Amen.
44:04Amen.
44:06Amen.
44:08Is it any lighter? Is it still just
44:10as heavy as ever?
44:12I think it's a little lighter, for sure.
44:14Yeah. It's a little bit lighter.
44:18I think just talking
44:20about it is a little healing.
44:22Talking about my past sexual
44:24abuse is not easy, but I
44:26feel like there's something really freeing about
44:28finally speaking my truth and
44:30expressing these emotions that I've held in for so
44:32long, and it's definitely something that I want to
44:34apply to every aspect of my life.
44:36I want to flip the script and break that cycle.
44:40Is it something that you could leave here
44:42instead of tucking it back inside of you?
44:44Yeah.
45:02Are you gonna spit up again?
45:06There it is!
45:08That's what you wanted to happen.
45:10Huh.
45:16Hi! You just had a baby!
45:18I know.
45:20Oh my goodness.
45:22You forget every single time.
45:24Let's go in here.
45:26It is perfect.
45:28Macy and I are visiting Whitney today and just checking on
45:30how she's doing postpartum.
45:32Hello!
45:34Oh my gosh, you guys are the greatest.
45:36I wouldn't say I'm like besties with
45:38Whitney, but I have no issues with
45:40Whitney, and I'm here if she needs a friend.
45:42It is
45:44tiny! So small!
45:46So when he reached out to me to get
45:48together, to kind of just hash everything out,
45:50I feel like I reached out to you, like, ever so often.
45:52You didn't respond to me, and then all of a
45:54sudden you posted a personal text online.
45:56And then I'm like, what the hell?
45:58So it felt like a stab in the back, to be honest.
46:00I wish that I would have just talked
46:02to you rather than running away.
46:04And I'm sorry.
46:06I just can't help but feel bad for her, and I do think that she
46:08regrets all of the things that happened.
46:10I mean, Jesus told us to forgive
46:12and love thy neighbor, so that's why I'm forgiving.
46:14You want to hold him?
46:16Yeah.
46:18He's so freaking cute.
46:20He might be getting hungry, though.
46:22He's, like, opening his mouth.
46:24I'm glad you're, like, doing
46:26good, and you're up, and you're, like,
46:28moving around, which is crazy.
46:30Okay, wait, I have to know.
46:32What happened at the Halloween party?
46:34Oh, gosh, that was a nightmare.
46:36Maybe we were, like, a summary.
46:38What happened?
46:40What didn't happen, really.
46:42I know Chase showed up because Miranda told me Chase was calling.
46:44Well, that's when chaos started.
46:46We just started going at him.
46:48It was bad.
46:50Dakota was in the middle, like, believing him.
46:52I'm like, why would you believe him when you can see he's lying?
46:54The biggest issue I had at the Halloween party
46:56was kind of Dakota not defending me
46:58as much as I thought he would to Chase.
47:00You never told me that.
47:02Oh, you never told him that? That's crazy.
47:04That's really opportunistic.
47:06So, yeah, that's what I'm saying.
47:08Almost as if he's looking for something
47:10to justify, like, the lies I found out.
47:12It makes it hard to move forward,
47:14especially when things like this come up and happen.
47:16It's, like, almost we take two steps back.
47:18Isn't that crazy?
47:20Can you believe that?
47:22And then the cops came.
47:24They're yelling at Chase.
47:26And I'm like, what the hell?
47:28It's just you and this baby.
47:30As we're sitting here talking,
47:32I'm just constantly reminded of how much I miss this.
47:34I miss being around even the other women.
47:36And I miss us all being together.
47:38Girlfriend's crying.
47:40Miranda's crying.
47:42That's when Jordan freaks out.
47:44He's like, take accountability.
47:46Take ownership right now.
47:48No, take ownership.
47:50That was wild.
47:52And then I guess she didn't know.
47:54But that's craziness.
47:56I can't believe I'm about to say this out loud,
47:58but I think I want to come back into MomTalk.
48:16I've definitely felt very isolated.
48:18It definitely feels like
48:20I have no one to turn to right now.
48:22It feels like
48:24Jesse and Demi
48:26are trying to sabotage me
48:28in my relationship.
48:30This whole time
48:32you were talking about
48:34how you were this supportive friend to me.
48:36If MomTalk is about friendship,
48:38then why are you doing this to me?
48:40If you truly knew
48:42what I have been going through
48:44this past year,
48:46this is the last thing that you would be doing.
48:48Hey, I went to the store.
48:50Yeah?
48:54I mean,
48:56I'm ten days late now,
48:58so I think we should
49:00take a pregnancy test.
49:04Okay, let's do it.
49:06Okay.
49:08You just want me to wait right here?
49:10Will you come in the bathroom?
49:12Or after I...
49:14Sure, yeah.
49:16Okay.
49:30Do you want to look at it together?
49:32Yeah.
49:46I don't know why.
49:48I'm really happy
49:50looking at this,
49:52but I'm not.
49:54I'm really scared.
49:56I started feeling
49:58depressed and anxious
50:00because
50:02my life has been
50:04really rocky and
50:06all over the place,
50:08so I am
50:12stressed
50:14stressed out of my
50:16mind with the thought of me being
50:18pregnant
50:20because Zach and I aren't
50:22on the best of terms,
50:24and I think the last thing
50:26we need is another baby.
50:30I'm okay.
50:38Ready to look at it?
50:40Yeah.
50:44Okay.
50:48Yep, I'm pregnant.
51:00Yeah, I'm just scared
51:04because
51:06I'm not the person I want to be
51:08before bringing in another child,
51:10so
51:12I'm sad for this child
51:14because
51:16I don't even know where my
51:18marriage is at,
51:20and so
51:24I think
51:26in this moment
51:28I've kind of come to my breaking point.
51:32I'm scared.
51:40Harder? Softer? Oh, I like that.
51:44Do you ever think you'd be back at a MomTalk
51:46sex party? I mean, Miranda's
51:48a great kisser.
51:50I just wanted to talk to you guys about the Halloween situation.
51:52What you guys did was touch my wife
51:54without consent.
51:56A few months ago I got confessions
51:58that said I slept with Demi's
52:00husband last year while she was away.
52:02Tensions in MomTalk
52:04have been really high right now.
52:06I feel so alone with my marriage
52:08where I'm not with all the girls.
52:10Okay.
52:12Now it's time for you guys to confess
52:14something that you've held in that you've never told people.
52:16So many secrets.