In a special chat with senior journalist Bharathi S Pradhan for Lehren, actress Moushumi Chatterjee talks about the heartbreaking loss of her elder daughter Payal. She shares how painful it was to see her daughter suffer, and how she prayed to God to take her away to end the pain. It’s an emotional and honest moment from a mother who went through a deep personal loss. #moushumichatterjee #payalchatterjee #jayantmukherjee
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00:00I can't say that she has wronged her.
00:03If she has wronged her, why would we be blind?
00:06She wanted to live so much.
00:08But then I had to pray to God,
00:10take her away, I cannot see her suffering.
00:13Suffering, okay.
00:14The God has given you a lot of things, right?
00:17Yes, I have given you a lot of things.
00:19I have given you a lot of things, right?
00:21I have given you a lot of things.
00:23Tell me a little bit about what you are doing.
00:25Tell me a little bit about what you are doing.
00:27Tell me a little bit about what happened with Payal,
00:30and what did you go through?
00:32Because I think that is one of the worst experiences
00:35any human being can go through.
00:38Number one Bharti, I don't like to talk about it now,
00:42because since Payal is not around, yeah?
00:45But Payal did a wrong choice,
00:47and she paid the price,
00:49and we all paid the price.
00:52And somewhere something has to be, you know,
00:56because I couldn't even say that,
00:58that Payal did wrong.
00:59If Payal did wrong,
01:01then why would we be blind?
01:03Okay, I cannot say that I am blind as a mother,
01:06then why would my husband be blind as a father?
01:08Why would my daughter, younger one,
01:10why would she be blind as a sister?
01:12Yeah.
01:13My blind brother used to cry on the phone,
01:15that what day is for me,
01:17and what night is for me.
01:18So if you know me,
01:20if you don't know me,
01:21take me to payal,
01:23and payal was, you know,
01:25Payal was, you saw her born and brought up,
01:28such a lovely and a child.
01:30She had so, suffered so much,
01:35so which I don't like to go back.
01:37She was in a coma for two and a half years.
01:40Yeah, 2017 she was in a coma.
01:42She came back in between, in between,
01:44but then we are forbidden to see her
01:47on our terms and condition.
01:49We had to go through police, court, everything.
01:53So the lesser, the better,
01:55you know, on this subject also,
01:57because it is not something nice thing
01:59or talking about proud thing.
02:01Not at all,
02:02but it is very inspirational to know
02:05how as a parent,
02:07did you handle the loss of a child?
02:11How is it that you are?
02:13Together.
02:14How is it that you are?
02:15Together.
02:16Only together.
02:17Togetherness means?
02:18Together means,
02:19hum ek saath jhele.
02:21You, Babu and Megha.
02:23Megha.
02:24My brother, my sister,
02:25jo bhi her, family.
02:27My mother also died in that time.
02:29She could not,
02:30she did not know why payal is not coming to see her.
02:32I could not tell her,
02:34ke payal is in coma hospital.
02:36Right.
02:37So I told you,
02:38I had very very big stroke
02:40and my child like Dodo,
02:43the lever dog.
02:44Yeah.
02:45Dogs.
02:46He also,
02:47you know,
02:48they all are fighting.
02:49I think they all gave their life for Payal,
02:51but it did not happen.
02:53And Payal wanted to live so much towards the end,
02:56she understood.
02:57She neglected herself,
02:58whatever her mental condition.
03:00Yeah.
03:01And she wanted to live so much.
03:03But then I had to pray to God,
03:05ki take her away.
03:06I cannot see her suffering.
03:08Suffering.
03:09Okay.
03:10Okay.
03:11Better because,
03:12we are a soul,
03:13we are going to leave our body,
03:14Wandi Bharti.
03:15What is the point suffering?
03:16Yeah.
03:17Yeah.
03:18If you are my,
03:19if you are love with my soul,
03:20you should always say,
03:21let it be free,
03:22now.
03:23Yeah.
03:24But how?
03:25The most damage is my younger daughter.
03:27Actually.
03:28Babu,
03:29not until now,
03:30got over.
03:31Because,
03:32he is still,
03:33sometimes seeing Payal's photo.
03:34I was not thinking,
03:35take her away from here.
03:36He is,
03:37get choked,
03:38you know,
03:39like.
03:40But,
03:41we do the birth of Payal's birth too.
03:43Even now,
03:44after she is no more?
03:45Yes.
03:46Yes.
03:47Oh, her birth anniversary.
03:48First,
03:49May Day.
03:50May Day.
03:51Look,
03:52God loves me.
03:53May Day.
03:54May Day.
03:55May Day.
03:56May Day.
03:57May Day.
03:58May Day.
03:59First May.
04:00Okay.
04:01So,
04:02you celebrate her birth anniversary every year?
04:03Oh, yeah.
04:04Everywhere.
04:05But,
04:06Megha also.
04:07Everybody,
04:08in our house.
04:09Cake cutting,
04:10shutting,
04:11dough type cake.
04:12Payal loves pineapple cake.
04:13Okay.
04:14So,
04:15we used to always,
04:16order for her.
04:17Not only that,
04:18Payal ke saath,
04:19jo colleagues bhi kaam karte,
04:20jo friends bhi hain.
04:21They also celebrate,
04:22you know.
04:23You know,
04:24you're a very fortunate lady,
04:25because,
04:26you've had,
04:27tragedies like this,
04:29and yet,
04:30and you've not,
04:31not,
04:32reached,
04:33the number one position,
04:34but you're such a happy,
04:35adjusted person.
04:36That's why I said,
04:37I'm like a water.
04:38No,
04:39that,
04:40because,
04:41I think,
04:42I got,
04:43I'm blessed person,
04:44what you are saying it.
04:45Baru ki ashirva,
04:46chotu ka payar.
04:47Because,
04:48that's right.
04:49That's right.
04:50So,
04:51God gave me so much.
04:52And,
04:53I tell,
04:54conversation with my God,
04:56and I said,
04:57but,
04:58I also give you so much.
04:59I gave my daughter.
05:00Yeah.
05:01You know.
05:02Yes.
05:03But,
05:04I think,
05:05I feel,
05:06I'm okay.
05:07Absolutely.
05:08Balance.
05:09Yeah.
05:10But,
05:11Bhagawan,
05:12has given you a lot.
05:13Yes.
05:14No,
05:15I also gave my daughter,
05:16and what can we do?
05:18But,
05:19then,
05:20also,
05:21I'm happy.
05:22Yeah.
05:23Because,
05:24every day,
05:25there's a mother,
05:26especially,
05:27our young people.
05:28That's right.
05:29That's why,
05:30we sleep,
05:31in the night properly.
05:32That's right.
05:33You know.
05:34And,
05:35aapna kisaan,
05:36jo bhi hai.
05:37They all are,
05:38Contributes.
05:39And,
05:40not only,
05:41the young people,
05:42are prepared.
05:43Correct.
05:44Aek ka body aata hai,
05:45dusra ko tiyaar karta hai.
05:46Correct.
05:47To,
05:48us ke samane,
05:49humara koi dhukhi nahi hai.
05:50That's right.
05:51That's right.
05:52You're absolutely correct.
05:53And,
05:54that's why,
05:55I could laugh.
05:56I could smile.
05:57I could make.
05:58I always say,
05:59you should be source of happiness.
06:00uh,
06:01premature death,
06:02in ke family bhe.
06:03But,
06:04they mostly also,
06:05you know,
06:06grief,
06:07and all the time,
06:08talk.
06:09And,
06:10I say,
06:11so,
06:12jo sadness hai na,
06:13wo baatne ka chiz nahi hai.
06:14And,
06:15I can't cry,
06:16my personal reason.
06:17Hmm.
06:18Hmm.
06:19Hmm.
06:20feel,
06:21I feel,
06:22I'm a brave girl.
06:23My parents are so brave.
06:25They brought me up so well.
06:27Well.
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